#@tsudelune-post

after the curtains closed, most of the audience left after watching wonderlands x showtime's last show for the night. you loitered to walk home back home with rui.

"oya? if it isn't y/n."

you could hear his chesire-like grin, turning around to see rui.

"rui, that show was magnificent; great job again."

"heh, thank you." rui chuckled. "to be honest, we went through an issue backstage."

"again? last time, emu got a nosebleed due to one of the props. thankfully i was there and it wasn't her turn on stage yet." you recollected, taking a sigh. "what happened this time?"

the curve of rui's lips drooped, "tsukasa almost got knocked out, again." rui sat down on the bench behind him, clasping his hands and putting his elbows on his knees. "...it's because of me."

you couldn't help but pity rui. you looked at his averted golden eyes that held guilt. you knew that this had happened previously.

"...rui, it's not your fault. we make mistakes."

"but, we can't afford to make mistakes anymore."

"you have a point."

it seemed pointless. you really didn't want to pick a fight with rui, but you thought that he didn't have to blame himself for it. the more this goes on, the more he decides to keep his creative ideas of his inside, worsening the product of the shows.

"i'll be honest with you," you announce out the blue, getting rui's attention. "don't push yourself back due to minor setbacks. that's what's going to fail the next upcoming shows."

"y/n, you don't understand," rui got up from the bench, narrowing his eyes. "if i execute my dangerous ideas, the troupe will only get further injured-"

"rui." you cut him off, with a stern tone. "this is stupid for us to start fighting over. so, i'll leave for now. we can talk tomorrow." you turn around, feeling bitter about your decision. however, it was for the best.

all of a sudden, someone's hand grabbed your wrist almost instinctively. you turn your head immediately, focusing on rui.

"wait, don't go, please..." rui muttered quietly, his eyebrows creased. "...let's talk a little longer. the sun hasn't set yet."

meeting his golden eyes, you helplessly smiled, nodding your head. "mm, let's."

afterwards, you convinced rui to do what he loves most-- which is creating eccentric ideas thanks to his imagination. anybody should be allowed to do what they want, as long as they like what they're doing.

"thank you, y/n." rui smiled, holding your hand.

"thank you first. my actions earlier were short-tempered." you laughed sheepishly, a bit embarassed. you couldn't lie, you couldn't understand why you did that in the first place.

all's well that ends well for the two of you.

B = Baby (Do they want a family? Why/Why not?)

- reasonably, akito doesn't have big thoughts about starting a family (i mean, all of them are literally in high school).

- however, akito is the type of person to say they hate kids, claiming they're annoying little beings that roam across the earth.

- when in reality, he's very sweet with kids, and treats them with utmost care when needed.

- akito would be invited to play soccer with the middle school kids at the park. he probably gets reminded of his own middle school self that gave up soccer.

- he might get bullied by the kids for being a ginger. we ignore that!

- if akito ever meets a kid that wants to give up their dream that they cherish, akito probably talks to them as if they were a younger version of himself (i don't know about you guys, but i'd breakdown at the sight of that).

I = Impression (What was their first impression?)

- i like to think that the two of you start off with some sort of rivalry. his first impression of you would be like an insatiable appetite. you were talented. and that was something he wanted to be.

- you guys would be rivals that support each other and make the other improve through critism (whether it be sarcastic or serious).

- and as time goes on, you realize that he's much more talented than you thought. he just doesn't see it.

- if the two of you were interested in music-- oh ho, he will be relentless.

- same type of rivalry, but sometimes akito thinks your doing events as some sort of fun.

- when he realizes your potential, akito might start to think you're better-- no, what is he saying?

- either way, the two of you are very competitive rivals. how will the rivalry grow? i haven't got a clue.

J = Jealousy (Do they get jealous?)

- anybody can agree. yes. he in fact does get jealous a normal amount.

- i'm joking about being jealous a normal amount-- he's protective and most definitely does not like the idea of you hanging out with a guy that can take you from him.

- the shinonomes in general are jealous people. it's cute, really.

- akito often tells the other guy to leave you alone, striking the other with a cold glare.

- sometimes akito would sneak his arm around your shoulder on days he feels bold, or when the other won't leave you alone.

- akito might flip the other when you're not looking. but hey, he's just jealous.

- he will NEVER, for the life of him, admit that he's jealous. still, it's obvious he is.

- just tell him a few words of love and he'll be fine. i think.

- just...two words. field. day.

- akito teases a lot. he makes flirtatious remarks every now and then, but seems to enjoy your flustered state! he knows what he's doing.

- when he finds out, he's unknowing of it.

- when he realizes that you're intensely blushing at his compliment...you can tell he's about to tease you. relentlessly.

- who could've possibly known that you were so easy to fluster? VBS probably did...but we ignore that.

- as time goes on, akito soon realizes when he should probably stop, because...i mean, you're literally as red as the sun sometimes.

- but the best part, is that akito finds it endearing. he fell harder than you did first.

vivid bad squad was taking a quick break, and akito took it as the chance to talk to you. He was drinking a small cup of coffee, while an, kohane, and touya were busy chatting away about the next event. the two of you were chatting about school, until...

"hey. y/n." akito interrupts, putting down his coffee. you bring your gaze to meet his green-ish eyes. "has anybody ever told you that you look really good today?"

"w-what?!" you yell out, gaining the attention of the other three. "a-akito, stop doing this on purposeee..." you quickly hid your face in your hands, while akito only laughed at your blushing mess. wasn't that mean, huh?

"oh man, y/n..." an started to smile widely, laughing a bit. "akito's got you wrapped around his finger..." even kohane and touya were laughing. they started to talk amongst themselves, with some sentences like "haha! y/n's easily flustered by akito more than anybody" leaking out from the conversation

"stop it an! i know that DAMN well." you retorted, your face still slightly red. akito only had this odd longing gaze at your face. you creased your eyebrows, skeptical of his next move.

"y/n," he said, dragging out your name. "i'd like it if you could give me a small kiss."

you grumbled under your breath, giving him a peck on the lips. "you're lucky i love you."

akito smiled knowingly, his chin rested upon his hand. "i am lucky, and i love you too."

- ohohoho. rui is having a FIELD DAY.

- likely with rui’s observant behaviour, he’ll quickly find out that you are not only touch starved, but gets easily startled!

- he always teases you whenever you get startled, like “hmm? i wonder why you’re so jumpy today.” THIS MF KNOWS WHAT HE’S DOING.

- of course, if you dislike/feel bad from the teasing, he’ll reduce or even stop it. caring boyfriend rui as always.

- rui likes to sneak up on you from behind- actually, scratch that. rui likes to walk up and casually puts his hand on your shoulder, and you punch him in the chest- on accident...i think.

- give rui a kiss on the cheek after that. he deserves it! even better the lips!

- one time, he snaked his arms around your waist and gave you a hug. literally BREATHED against your ear and whispered in the most rui cat-like voice ever, “hi.”

- you just stood there. not knowing what to do. rui gently laughed at your reaction, while you were NOT having it.

- what i mean by that, is that i mean you were red. really red.

- rui didn’t know why you were so quiet, and when he pulled away he noticed that you seemed really similar to a tomato. that’s because you were blushing, like a wildfire.

- that’s when he knew he had creative liberty to teasing. (of course with additional precautions taken)

- whenever you ask for a hug or some cuddle time together, he always seems to grin a bit at your flustered face.

- he can feel you heating up whenever you guys hug/cuddle, sometimes he jokes around how he can use you as a personal heater in the winter LMAO

- rui can feel your hands hesitate a bit when you wrap your arms around him, and he only unconsiciously hugs you tighter.

- he thinks that moments like these always make him feel connected to you; as if you’d never leave him. moments that he cherishes, always wants more of. he can’t ever let go.

- i do think that rui himself would be touch-starved, so don’t think you’re annoying him! he absolutely adores being touched.

- loves the light tint of your blush when he kisses you on the forehead. (no, i’m not crying)

- rui, always wants to make sure you feel satsified, and never wants to you to feel unloved <3

it was really getting to you. it was always on your mind. every move you made in front of others and every word you spoke, always heavily resembled it. you couldn't help but think, what is it?

it...must be disappointment. yes, disappointment. you were disconsolate, depressed, dejected. but why? you were one of the brightest in the street, so there was no reason.

despite all these dismayed feelings, someone has to smile through it.

the most recent event you put on with vivid bad squad; a joint event, was amazing for the latter. in truth, you had never seen vivid bad squad so confident on stage that night.

you could swear that akito, was radiating on stage, surprising the crowd with his strong vocals.

you performed as a soloist afterward, but the usual hype of the crowd was nowhere to be seen. however, the crowd was still excited. thank god, because you would've been embarassed further.

your mind lingered on those memories from last night. now, you were in the weekend garage, drinking a cup of bittersweet coffee.

the coffee swirled like your thoughts. were you losing your edge? can you really defeat RAD WEEKEND? it was unclear to you. if it wasn't blurry before, the path is most uncertainly unclear now. if vivid bad squad is in the way of your goal, do you have to--

the chime of a bell interrupted your ideas. you instinctively look up to see vivid bad squad. your eyes land on akito first.

you see touya whispering something to akito, and giving him a nudge before joining an and kohane in their chat. akito strays away from the group to take a seat across from you.

"y/n, thanks for agreeing to perform with us last night." akito gave his signature smile, putting his arms on the table. "what'd you think about our performance?"

you glanced at your coffee, looking back at akito with a small grin. "you guys are fantastic, as usual. i can tell you guys practiced a lot." your smile gradually faded, pursing your lips instead. "i have to admit, i'm envious."

akito widened his eyes, worriedly asking, "why is that? i've always been jealous of you sometimes." he relaxed his shoulders, leaning forward to hold your hand. "you know, working alone is difficult. that's why, i'm willing to be here for you. vivid bad squad is willing to support you too."

sometimes, his unexpected gentleness can really almost make you cry. "let's talk outside." you urgently whisper, getting up and opening the door. looking back, you see the ginger, dumbfounded with his mouth slightly open. "so, you coming?"

to be honest, you just wanted to leave the cafe because you saw vivid bad squad eyeing you and akito. scratch that, it was an eyeing the two of you, with a knowing look in her eyes.

you and akito were now sitting on the pair of swings at the playground. the spring breeze was quiet today.

"akito, about last night's event..." you trail off, while akito's head perked up at the sound of your voice. "i don't think i'll ever be able to make to your guys' level now." you try to give a small smile, but it's proven useless, the corners of your lips turning into a frown. "before, we were all at the same level. but now, you guys really steeled and became the group you are today."

akito was flattered at your words--however, he's nervous for what you have to say. he understands, but...

"that's why, i'm not going to attempt to surpass RAD WEEKEND anymore."

akito stands up abruptly from the swing, making you flinch. "don't give me that nonsense!" he yelled, looking at you from the corner of his eye. akito was most definitely angry at you. "you can't just give up. this isn't the y/n i always knew."

you shook your head, also standing up to make yourself taller (which didn't make you taller). "then maybe, you never knew me at all!" you cried, feeling your eyes water. "maybe you just never knew how much of a pathetic, weak, loser i was! you would've ever love someone like that, yet you did." at this point, you didn't care anymore. who was he to deny your confession? tears freely fell onto the ground. you found interest in those wet spots on the sand, hoping to hide your face from akito.

the boy in front of you couldn't help but feel bad. he was well aware on how you felt-- he didn't relay those feelings the way he could've.

"i'm just scared, akito." you admitted with a tremble in your voice. "scared of you guys leaving me behind."

"then don't give up." akito's reassuring hands gently pat your tense shoulders. "we're not leaving anybody behind. especially you, and i'll make sure of that. now, stop crying and raise your head."

instead, you did the complete opposite of his comforting words. akito raised his eyebrows, stumbling back when you suddenly ran into is arms, sobbing.

"hey--" akito sighs, smiling helplessly. "y/n, you know i'm not good at this type of stuff..." nevertheless, he hugged you back, letting you hide in his arms as you sniffled.

maybe you should promise akito a slice of cheesecake for worrying him. as a sign of love, as well.

it was an ordinary school day-- at least, not for you.

today was another day to (hopefully) get your crush to notice the signs. at this point, you were close to giving up. however, you weren't one to give up. at least, not to love.

as much as your friends in kamiyama like to call him a ginger or "lil'bro" (courtesy of your best friend), you like to just call him akito.

the two of you hang out often. as friends, the history books like to call it. to you, as something more.

"akito! i'll be waiting by the courtyard!" you shout, as you make your way to where you usually ate. it was now spring-- however, you liked him for a long time.

unrequited love, hopeless, impossible-- to you, there was always a chance for something to happen.

taking a seat by the shade, you start to eat your lunch, admiring the clear blue sky of today. if anything, the sky is there to watch it all.

"you said you were going to wait-- are you that hungry?" teased a familiar voice. it was recognizable from a mile away for you.

"oh- sorry! i didn't think that far." you moved over for akito to sit next to you, laughing.

"no, i was only joking." akito gives a smile, "oh right, i have something to ask of you."

you nod, insisting he goes on. you wondered what he had to say, because most of the time you initiated the conversations.

"i've heard from...a certain someone," akito grumbled, as if the someone was a forbidden person, "that you like me. is this true?"

speechless. you had no words. now, you were determined to find this certain someone. you had an idea. but, back to the matter at hand-- this was not how you planned this to go!

"uh...what...?" you tried to act clueless as possible, waving your free hand dismissively. "oh uh, of course not...! who would be saying that type of thing....ahhaha...."

akito deadpanned, sighing. "you know, you've been kind of obvious."

"...what?"

you wanted him to know that you like him, yes, but not in this way!

"...uh, i don't like you! but wait, no, i technically do..." you mumbled out incoherent strings of words, rambling on and on. however, akito shut you up immediately with a kiss, roughly crashing his lips onto yours.

"...can you shut up?" akito sighs, holding your blushing face in his hands. "you're too loud..."

"uh- oh, right..." you looked away from akito, returning to eating your food after that spectacle.

well, surely that kiss gave you all the details you needed, right?

- SWEETEST BOYFRIEND EVER. i say this for everyone!!

- rui really adores + loves you so much. he wouldn’t trade you, his wonder for anything. 

- when you guys started dating, WXS congratulated the two of you. emu screamed and hugged the both of you.

- he definitely invites you to rehearsals, and WXS doesn’t mind!

- on the day of the performance, rui takes little peeks in the audience to try to find you, and sometimes he does, sometimes he doesn’t.

- after the show when rui is done cleaning backstage, he’d look around for you. 

- when he finds you running up to him with a wide smile, he can’t help but smile back and give you a big hug. 

- WXS was totally not looking at that scene!

- on the topic of hugs, rui would often hug you behind you, i guess in an attempt to shock you.

- he’d wrap his arms around your waist, and whisper something in your ear. if you get flustered, i mean, wasn’t that his main goal?

- and, rui wouldn’t mind kissing and hand holding in public, but other things come in private.

- rui would take you to phoenix wonderland once in a while for a date. even taking you any local park just to hang out makes him happy <3

- he just wants your company, and he’ll like it best if he just hangs out at your house or his.

- when you guys hang out at his house, you guys would just chill, help rui with his robots, give him ideas for shows, like normal.

- sometimes you’d nag rui to take a rest, and how can he not say yes to you?

- ugh rui’s hugs are so nice! literally bear hugs everytime you hug him

- he loves to kiss you on the lips best <3

- forehead and cheek kisses too OH MY GOD melting right now

- i feel like his love language is quality time + words of affirmation.

- if rui sees you flustered. he’s going to tease you, and push on. 

- rui wouldn’t get flustered easily, but if you did fluster him, he’d shy away from you, absolutely denying that you made him blush. you did make him blush.

- rui just loves you and enjoys the fact that you’re one of the people that didn’t judge him, and that you truly love him for who he is.

when walking around the streets of shibuya after school, you recieve a call from nene, a good friend of yours.

you recieve the call with a happy tone, "hi nene! what's up?"

"nothing much." you could hear nene's small smile through the phone-- if that makes any sense...

"i just have a small favor to ask of you." nene spoke, "you see, rui had multiple slip-ups in our rehearsal. now he's sulking." you wanted to laugh a little at nene's sarcasm, but now was not the time.

"i'm simply asking if you could...check up on him. he's had a pretty bad day." nene requested. how could you deny?

"yeah, of course!" you started to re-route yourself to a new destination-- phoenix wonderland.

you arrived at the amusement park shortly, walking to the wonder stage, where wonderlands x showtime were rehearsing. it seems that tsukasa, emu, and nene were in their own world as rui was on stage, making preparations for their next run through.

nene turns around to see your figure, giving you a small nod toward the stage.

your eyes relocate to where rui was. you smile to nene as thanks, and walk up the stairs to see your boyfriend-- rui.

"rui, consider a small break?" you tap his shoulder, and lean into his view.

"oh, y/n." rui gives a small grin at your presence, but it's not the same smile you remember seeing. "i'm sorry, but i have to finish this."

you crease your eyebrows at his remark, and you pull his hand away before he started working on the next thing in front of him. "rui. i need you listen to me."

you couldn't see his expression because you pulled him toward the edge of the stage, taking a seat on the right.

"rui," you turn your head to his face to see his expression. his absent smile, sullent spirit, and no eye contact told you everything. "i've heard from nene what happened. well, at least the summary." you reach for his hand, grasping it softly. "a break never hurts. please?"

rui finally made eye contact with you, his golden eyes looking into your eyes. you couldn't help but feel giddy every time he did, and felt the corners of your mouth raising.

"i'm helpless because of you, huh?" rui chuckled and squeezed your hand. "thanks."

you gave a small huff of triumph, moving closer to rui to give him a small peck on the cheek and a much-needed hug. you wrap your arms around his figure.

"love you lots." you smiled into his shoulder.

rui's arms embraced you, feeling like a warm blanket. "mm, me too."

this could've resulted in a solitary moment for him. your interception of the moment made his day much better, for sure.