#:plotting call

Before:

Fein is desperate to prove himself.

The days after Jedha left him haunted, stalked by the memories of the riot, of the picture of his own face illuminated on the Empire’s screens with the glow of a lightsaber he barely remembers how to use. The burn on his arm is barely healed, a pinched and throbbing reminder that he failed because he did not prepare. 

When his Master steps forward as leader, there is no other option but to step forward to follow. They’ve spent the last few weeks sparring, learning, preparing - now is the time to show her he’s been learning. Now is the time to prove that he is an asset to the Rebellion, not a liability. 

During:

This mission is a test of Fein’s restraint. When battle rages and the Inquisitors encircle their leaders like the predators they were raised to be, Fein lets himself be pulled away. For a moment, he ignites his saber. For a moment, he takes a step to stand beside his master. For a moment, he fighting in wars long dead alongside another Master, in another life; and then Noa tells him to ‘Go. Remember and go,’ and for the second time in his life he abandons his Master. 

He runs, with Xavis & ___, towards the call of the crystals - acolytes at their heels. Around corners, the hurricanes raging against the walls around them, and through it all the crystals call - a pulsing primal energy that beckons. They will not leave without the purpose of the mission accomplished. 

After:

Crystals in hand, one at his heart, Fein can’t help but feel triumph. There’s a grin between Master and Padawan as he races past her into the ship, and suddenly the Rebellion is full of possibilities. As the base begins to hum with the creation of a new generation of lightsabers, Fein turns to a giant of his past for help - he needs a weapon he feels comfortable wielding. A weapon that is less of a remnant of the Jedi he wanted to be, and more a symbol of the man he has become. 

This is loosely what Fein is up to during the mission Crystallize. There are open spaces in this for others to join in, and I am very much down for pre, post, or during threads! 

Note: If we are still involved in any Revenant threads that you would like to drop or wrap up, please let me know! I do not mind in the slightest! 

During the Announcement:

He’d lost his mind to routine in the Pits. He’d lived the same day, every day, for longer than he can count. Interminable, the days of rising with the sun to kill all day to lying awake under stars reliving each death; time became meaningless as the endless days bled into each other. Or maybe routine had broken him before that - under the Stormtroopers careful rotation of torture devices and endless loop of the same questions, Fein forgot his name, forgot his past, forgot everyhting but the fact that he did not know the answers to the questions they asked. 

Routine was something Fein was learning he could not abide, so when they asked for volunteers he raised his hand without a second thought. 

During the Extraction:

He did not know the people standing on the stage. He did not know why the rebellion was so tense, why every second felt like it stretched thin on the edge of a knife - near to bursting. He did not understand why this mission was so important, but as he stands by the stage looking up in a face so much younger than his, his hands itch at the hilt of a weapon he’d forgotten how to hold. 

He doesn’t blink when Matthias leaps for the stage. When his brother moves, he moves. They fight together, and the world shrinks beyond them until it contains nothing but the two of them and the fight around them. Its only when Llewyn and Rishla are calling for the retreat that he’s forced back to reality. 

His face looms down from the screens above, back-lit by the blue light of his lightsaber, he wishes he could say that he doesn’t recognize himself, but Fein always was intimately familiar with Nightmares. 

Aftermath:

Ashamed of his actions and fearful of the implications of the rebellions new notoriety; Fein is lost. He seeks solace in the hangar bay, throwing himself into work on the ships and the fighters (almost as if he were looking for atonement), or in the Temple throwing himself into his training. He’s seen even less during the day, choosing instead to walk the halls when there are fewer eyes to see him, fewer people to point him out as the cause of their newfound peril. 

A loose outline of Fein’s internal thoughts and feelings, as well as his actions during Event: Revenant. If you’d like to have a thread, either send me a message (here or on discord) or like this post and I’ll message you!