(calling up to pearly gates of heaven-singing)
happy happy birthday happy happy birthday to you joseluis happy happy bday to ma nephew "Sleepy" love you man.
On this day, you would've of been 29. nephew..
I wish you was here to celebrate this day w you.. i miss yu and your mom,. idk what to say. im lost for words like always man. yu was so talented, so smart. loving and caring as well. wish i had more pictures of you or/and with you. we all miss you. i wish you was able to met the kids.. you would love each one.
Gabe stay to himself but he is funny and has a unique personality. isaac man he is extra with everything but he is a bright kid with the right guidance he will be alright to even greater.. heavyn is a diva for real. but she is very smart. she also likes to prank. LeLah still growing into her personality but she is a jokerster for real, Sleepy..
i wish you was here with me. actually seating beside me: talking in person at this time of our age..now all I/We have is the internet to post it up.. our memories were short.. we didnt get to live our adult hood. just our teen age years.. we argued, fist fight and still had each other backs.
Sleepy at times i feel like the memories fade away.. because i cant remember, what its like to hear your voice or what one of your hugs feel like. no touch no smell no voice to go with your face. not enough time for none of us.. and it feels liking you are fading away because all we half are pictures of you now.. we didnt get the chance of recording you. (unless some one has a video of him please send).. its like i know what it feels like to be a deaf person: when it comes to thinking of you man.. to grow old in my 80s and end up with alzheirmer to probably forget you for ever.. i cant and dont want that to happen but its the truth never know. just like we never thought he would of taken your life and he did it..
why did he do it?
no one knows exactly why.
maybe he would have the guts to reach out to just simply explain himself on why? .........some day.
How much anger did he have inside him?
To have zero fear of taking your life away? how could he!!!?
then i wonder; how does it feel to never forget the face of the first person he ever murdered!!?
how does he sleep at night to have my nephews face burned into his memory forever. He ripped our hearts the moment we found out of your death. he tortured it going on 14 years now, it may not sound long but it sure does feels like it. which will contunie forever, man!!
Sleepy you should have been blowing out your 29th candles right now, so we all can eat cake right now.. missing you loving you and thinking of you of course.. peace out sleepy..
