You know how you just have this deep-seated connection to some people? Like it might not be in love like 'I'm in love with you' love (even though it might have been like that at some point) but you are connected and the shit just does not go away?
It's been over 13 years for me.
We talked 24/7 and we would go our separate ways for a bit and when we would talk again it'd be as though time wasn't an issue and we'd pick up right where we left off. Even after all these years, I'm still concerned for their wellbeing. I think of them often and clearly it's the same on their end cause they hit me up every so often. Even though they are being left on read (and no lie this shit is killing me). I want soooo bad to see how they are. If they are OK. Let them know I wish them all the best in life and nothing but success even if that life doesn't include me. But I know if I even say Hi it's going to open the flood gates of a number of emotions I'm not trying to experience.
I can honestly say I don't want anything more than to make sure their alright. I'm not interested in a relationship of any kind. But I know if I open that door even in the slightest crack it will lead to something I may not be prepared for or even think is a possibility so opening the door could have me where I don't want or need to be.
And as much I think I should sever the tie, I can't bring myself to do it. I think it's easier to fathom breaking the tie if they wronged me or something. But they never have. They have literally always been concerned about what is best for me and the boys. If ever I needed anything or needed to vent they were there.
Logically I know I'm in the place I'm supposed to be surrounded by the people I'm supposed to be with, and the grass ain't greener over there because my heart went where it was supposed to be all those years ago.
I guess what I'm trying to say is be careful who you're out here giving pieces of yourself to.
Soul ties are real.
