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XユーザーのDr. Catさん

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Sometimes you cross my mind like on a rainy day, when I'm alone and sometimes even when I see a couple walking down the street. Those are the moments I miss you, I rarely think of you anymore though. Seems like time does heal all wounds, but you left a permanent scar. I don't know how I should feel...should I hate you for what you did or love you for what you taught me? I don't feel anything anymore, I cry for you occasionally when I'm alone. I hate when something reminds me of you, it just gets me upset. I don't even know why I still have this deep down desire that one day I'll come home from school and you'll be waiting for me. Asking,begging for me to come back to you. Saying that doing what you did to me was the worst mistake of your life and that you'd do anything to get me back. I guess it's normal for me to want that, but it hurts a little to know it will never happen. I just want to talk to you, see how you're doing, catch up on things. I wish we could be friends because you were such a big part of my life and now you're gone. You left an empty space, sort of speak, in my heart. I still don't understand your reasoning for some of the things you did, but I can't let that hold me back. I let you go and accepted what happened, I moved on. You will always be the only person I gave my all too, the only one I loved with every once of my being. I hope you're doing well and that you're happy with Nancy. Treat her right, she doesn't deserve to get hurt, like you hurt me. No one deserves that kind of pain.

i want to cuddle and just be up under him .

boy you know you got me gone.