#6-7am

Doing some observing since im just sitting around… and I realised it was hard to do observing in like and thought I might as well do screenshots and draw over even on phone but problem is that while I think it might be helping me…? With trying to figure stuff… it’s not really penetrating my mind… so maybe I really need to draw smth even on pencil n paper but I don’t really want to. So I think I should do more deep mental drawing. Like taking a moment to construct the stuff in my mind like im actually drawing there… with each stroke and see how it goes… 6.39

—6.40 one thing I just realised as I was doing this is heh… wait… the torso/pec muscle are literally connected to top part of the hand… wow… it really puts a lot of this into perspective. like when I was drawing hands and trying to understand how it freaking is when drawing it just like. next to torso. it’s hard to guage how close anyways. I feel like I knew (well yeah I knew cuz lmao I wouldn’t have came to this if I didn’t) this but it’s not knowledge I keep in mind and forgot to… so that’s important… to realise. It makes the arms feel less floaty and more connected. same with remembering how arms are slanted and not perfectly in align…. 6.42

I THINK IVE GOTTEN???? ARMS????? AHHHHHH (was watching el or whatever name’s video and I was repeating it for another reason I wanted to see what brush he was using and then I think how he does part of arm got inbrained in my skull… kinda funny how I never watched it all for what I wanted (the BR muscle) )