#5odays.

do i smile at strangers ? - - - somewhat.

if im being extremely quiet, what does that mean ? - - - theres a wide variety of reasons why (: here are the simple ones : im tired & i have nothing to say. its near naptime. im searching for something. im basking in the silence for the first time that day. im lost in thought. im trying to figure out something. i lost what i was going to say to you. i dont wanna talk to you. i DO wanna talk to you but i dont know what to say. im trying to keep up the image i created of myself for you & you only by keeping my mouth shut.

do i believe everyone deserves a second chance ? - - - yeah. to learn their fucking mistake & not do it again. i also believe everyone deserves a compliment a day, a hug per week, & a phone call every month. but calculus is a friend cockblocker. sorry.

what do i want to do after high school ? - - - this would be sad if i was already out. i wanna move out. i wanna go off to college. i wanna find myself chin up in bills that have my own name in them & be able to pay them off WITH MY OWN G O D D A M N MONEY. i wanna be able to open my own bank account that is primarily for a trip to the caribbeans. i wanna go off to paris for study abroad. i wanna be able to buy theodore the pug by the beginning of junior year of college. i want steven there beside me, telling me that he likes waking up to me, & that i should never cook for him ever again. i dont wanna see my family, any of them, for an enormous amount of time, like five to sixteen months at most, & still send them christmas cards attached to their presents via mail box & a lot of stamps. i just wanna do things that i will be able to find myself completely content doing.

favorite store to shop in ? - - - i find myself not being disappointed online on forever21, but being so in the store. same goes for charlotte russe. yup. sad. i know. ive given up on shopping. i find myself tired mentally of it & how it weighs me down. it will be a long motherf time before i buy new clothes & thats motherf fine by me.

do i think age matters in a relationship ? - - - age doesnt matter to me. as long as you have a level of maturity i can fully respect & i can visibly see that the relationship will go somewhere other than the bedroom { symbolicly saying that for all the other places you could do it, like the kitchen counter, o___o }, then proceed on, date. but of course, i wont shove myself in between god knows who & god knows who`z siginificant other just because i think its wrong. hell, you will barely see an obvious disapproval from me. sure, i will scowl, but is it my business ? was i asked for my opinion ? no. so why should i start now ?

there are people who will say awks during the goddamn wrong time of a conversation, like just to throw it out there & get laughs, & i wanna throw something back at them, preferably something big, heavy, & will get them to pay around fifteen grand for a new face & a motherf life lesson.

have i ever liked someone & never told them ? - - - who hasnt. there are those who i never even considered telling, those who i came close to telling, those who i didnt really need to tell, & there are those i couldnt tell even if i tried because there are & were & always will be too many factors in consider & ive brought them enough troubles since the time i met them.