#5dgrid

The limbo in which we’re now (off the 3D and not activated on the new grid yet) is a reason for why the human ego may be jumping out hot all of sudden - it’s losing an ‘environment’ where it has been operating so far. Therefore, the ego will be questioning everything - from your own TF story, to people providing channelings and sharing own knowledge, whether for free or paid. There’s a lot of judgment in the air, blaming, getting angry, impatient, people cannot put up with this ‘situation’ anymore etc. Fortunately, these are short outrages and yet there’s a very strong presence of some helpful energies which are calming impulses down.

The hint is to let yourself be detached from all that what is in the old version of reality. It’s extremely difficult to describe how to do it but I’d call it ‘ignore’. Ignore the TV news, ignore somebody’s provocation, ignore own mind’s provocation etc. Ignore doesn’t mean shut down on love though. Do keep your heart open but the mental stuff must be limited to max. Have something enjoyable to do to make the brain detach from that one unsolved puzzle, an unfinished TF ‘business’. The ego was built to make a human survive and is related to its brain. While being detached from the 3D reality, it feels in danger  loosing that old area of activity - energetic connections which helped it ignite itself to make a human take action. Because the human is not given the new opportunity yet, the ego starts provoking the human to break with the spiritual, invisible, stuck, that what seems to be ‘hopeless’, ‘doubtful’, ‘fraud’ etc. This is the brain’s last attempt to regain control over the human body before it has to give up and give power to the heart. Why is it? Because the brain has an etheric ‘implant’ which is wired to serve the negativity and sabotage the  human’s true happiness (making a human ‘feel small’ rather than letting  his/her use own true talents). Only you can control yourself, best time now.

I’ve a feeling that we’ll be connected with our TFs via hearts only and the minds will be finally detached. It’s been super exhausting to spend a day after day holding consciousnesses of the two in one head.

Again, it’s the best to monitor your thoughts and impulses - if the ego is provoking you for taking action against yourself (and the TF), if it re-validates your connection again to bring up the negative, if it’s looking for holes to fill them with its own assumptions (which are 98% far from the truth) etc. You know your behaviors, you’ve been through this, most probably you’ve won with the ego, so don’t let the old screw the new. Even if the TF triggers your ego directly, detach mentally and focus on your own transition. The negative ego will be attaching to all possibilities to survive. This energy now reveals a lot of deception but the ego may use it for its purposes to run away into the old, by telling you f.e. - “Just like ‘you’ thought’ - he/she’s not your TF, move on” (even if you’ve been proved many times that he/she is, stick to what your heart feels is true). You will know when he’s not your TF because you will be released in the spirit to move on, just like leaving an old useless relationship, job, house etc. Bonded TF couples will feel they want to stay together and continue just for the curiosity of what the new brings!

I’m not having the best time with my TF right now because he’s going through this 3D detachment heavily so I feel like arguing with him, polarizing strongly in spirit quite often yet no contact continues. It seems he just doesn’t want to detach from a dying energy, still trying to ‘save the world’ for noble reasons and pointing fingers at those who harm others, while these people feed with others’ anger so he gets the worst of it including increased sadness. I’ve detached myself from anything negative and I’m above all of it, not looking down or back, being just me for myself this time.

Yet I’m super connected and loved by the entire cosmos, and specifically my Draconian kin, we literately cheer for winning and freedom. I was watching stars last night and it felt as if the entire Universe was in ecstasy which materialized as a silent shout from my heart & mouth, as if I wanted to throw out some energy that way and shout ‘Victory!’ along with my Draconians on a spaceship. Then when I couldn’t sleep at 4 am I imagined I was on their ship and we said no words as we always communicate via hearts & telepathy. I just came and they were always ready to be for me. There’s always so much love, respect and understanding between me and them, just like in an ancient brotherhood. I imagined (astrally moved myself) I lied in bed in one of their little cabins and they assisted me like silent protectors. I also looked out of a rounded window and I ‘saw’ a bit of the outer space, a big slow asteroid and a bit orange glow of the Eltanin star. Then I was contacted with one of them and we held hands, looked into eyes and sent so much energy of love for each other, like between ancient beings who are equal and are a few millions years old. I then asked for a Draconian female massager (they have such specialists to relax their warriors before battles - kind of thing from the past as they don’t have to fight so often these days, they’re just sitting there on the ship, training the hearts’ opening, turning to love and waiting for the grid to be fired as much as we humans on the Earth). I got a back & buttocks massage and it relaxed me so I finally fell asleep (in my own bed). The next day I was so very missing being with them (and them missing me too!) because it felt so much real, despite that it was only in spirit. Again, imagination is in fact living a different life.

I’m now in a process of winning with my old self (that of creating doubts, disbelieving and rationalizing) which feels a victory. I cannot wait for my TF to follow me instantly or constantly teach him of what I know when he doesn’t want to apply or try things his own, however when I settle down ‘up there’ in the new grid, he will be pulled too because energy of my new ‘space’ will feel comfortable, soothing, exciting etc. It’s important to stay connected but detach from dependence. The original, astral higher self is being put into my body, to replace the old but it’s somehow also related to that angel still living inside of me, coming out occasionally. It’s like there are energies from 2 sides, from inside and outside and I’m merging both in one human yet a light body. I even accepted that I’m a dragon-seraphim because I felt that I really love playing with my own fire for the joy of just having it so much, especially when I cannot use yet. Thus there’s more self-love and a spark in the eye I haven’t seen for a few years now, something raw, mighty, excited, something ready. It’s important to talk to yourself while looking into your eyes in a mirror.

I’m also  experiencing a weird pain the left hip which I never had before but like with other pains which come and go, it looks like another Ascension symptom due to some blockage, though I’ve no idea what blockage it could be as my sacral chakra (that closest to the hurting nerve) has no unwanted connections.

The next month should be erotically passionate without holding back, the Sun is in Scorpio, new moon will be in Scorpio on 10/30 when a lot of hidden truth may be revealed directly into our minds, some planets also go direct in November. There will be more loose puzzles matched together to let you see a bigger picture, not just in terms of your TF relationship but much wider, about all that is and your past, present and future roles in it. Before we are able to receive it properly however, our minds/brains need to be rewired and purged to accept and enjoy the truth which usually is far from what we ‘think’. Nothing to worry about :)