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“no,”   adam sighs,  body shifting out of the sunken position that glued him to the counter,   fingertips tapping restlessly against the marble.    he couldn’t blame her  ––  the thoughts that went through his own head when kim was missing would have been incriminating if said aloud,   the violent intent and lack of care for consequences if it meant bringing home his girl were far more dishonorable than upton’s defense of their superior.   he wouldn’t have felt the guilt that she did,   wouldn’t have been bothered by the question of ethics,   because if it were him,   it would have been on purpose.  (  he would have crossed that line for kim  ).    “ no, ”   he repeats,  this time more sure of his answer.    “ i would’ve done the same thing. ”    worse.   he wants to tell her that roy deserved it,   that he was a bad man who,  as far as they had known,   killed one of their own --  but he knew it wouldn’t help.   it wasn’t just about roy’s death,  it was the way the act was carried out,   the lies,   the ethics of it all.    it was eating away at her because it wasn’t a decision that she could stand behind,   and she had no choice but to follow through.   “ i would’ve-- ”