Finally back on a laptop. I really need to purchase a new one because I have not been getting things done as fast as I want to.
Anyway, my life has made a huge turn. Iâve decided to take a program instead of continuing straight on with my psychology and education majors. I feel like I need to handle some business with my parents before pursuing my dreams first. Which isnât ideal to me, but is for my parents. Itâs a tough decision ya know. Putting your dreams on hold for your parentsâ dreams. Just hope that I donât get too caught up in this career and forget about pursuing what I really want to do.
Iâm in that phonk again. Dunno what it is to be honest. I just feel a little.... Bored. I feel like I was stuck in a rut with the whole relationship thing. But I found a distraction and I completely got over everything. But now Iâm in this state of indifference and it sucks, for lack of better words. Indifference is such a perfect suit for what I feel right now.. I donât know how else to explain it.
Ya know, Iâd think that the distraction would be something for me to take my mind of things for a quick minute til I can get back on my feet but it ainât. Itâs growing on me and I should stop. I watched this movie called Shaolin, which is one of my top favorite movies now, and there was a line thatâs stuck with me. Goes something like, learn how to let go first so you wonât grow any attachments. I need to learn that.
Well, I just got home from work so itâs my time to relax. I need to put some music onto my iphone too.