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idk what's wrong with me. Part of me has this wolf inside which wants to scoff everything ins site (doesn't help that I have a sweet tooth) and while ,yes ,granted im on my period at the same fuckjng time it's been fucking three years . Why can i just stick to my plans . Why can i be disciplined enough to starve myself and go exercise /do cardio at the gym regularly. I fucking hate my life and partly the people in it. If I had been in uni rn and living by myself my parents would be around and I could starve myself easily . I just want to get better but at the same time get worse . Like sometimes I'm daydreaming and fantasising about going into a physiatric ward but "oh no I don't act or look mentally ill enough " for that shit ,which is why have to get worse (besides the fact I desvere it ) .. amd it also doesn't help that my new school friends are like she doesn't/barely eats when I literally feat right fucking infront of them ! (Tho this does give me motivation to try decrease my meal portions and ultimately stopped eating altogether again ) but it's so fucking difficult with life going on...I just wish i could get my dream body so that I can finally be beautiful and of worth something.... :(

Devo combattere la malattia, perdere peso non mi farà stare bene... Ma è davvero davvero dura guardare in faccia la realtà. Ogni chilo preso è una sofferenza...

what’s everyone’s stats?