#444m

Sometimes I really feel bad for myself or should I say petty myself coz of my satrun placement in 2nd house of finance and family. No matter how much my other placements make me a optimistic person but still somewhere I always had the thought of how good it would be if my family issue's wouldn't be there. I k no placement with satrun will good results in starting but what I'll do it later in my life when my whole life I've missed the warmth in my childhood. To the point where I've everything other kids want but yet not everything that other kids have. My parents at some point even 💀 taunted me for eating the 3 time meals, still I'm soo useless according to them. At every single point I've given the reminder of how much of a looser I'm as compared to my cousin's who are at the age of marriage while I recently completed my school 💀

All problems won't stay here forever but I had already missed the warmth, purity of childhood etc what will I do of the love and warmth that my parents will give me at age 28_29. I d even know I'll need the love and empathy at that tym any longer. What I crave is now. But ofc maybe this will make me a better parent if I ever will be.

They say childhood is the one time when a human is actually capable of enjoying the life, otherwise most well off ppl in this world even after achieving everything in their life aren't happy at all. Coz us humans are greedy and with our age dumb too actually.

So this is to all the other ppl who thinks that they deserved better as a child in any matter of life:) ik it's not easy to actually start thinking good for it when things are so messed up. But remember the lesson you'll be getting by it is what you missed in your last life. Maybe you struggled alot in that area to value that and be better at it for future generations. 💞👀