I googled my mri results and this is what images I received. I’m thankful that the docs are saying the labrum isn’t severely damaged. Just frayed and worn more since the injuries occurred several months ago. That’s good news. The bad news is I have torn the some key areas around the shoulder socket. (As pictured in above). Idk how this will go. I’m not worried about the surgery. This is just another on the list. 31. #30 was just 8 weeks ago. That problem is much better but will require a surgery at least 2-3 times a year to maintain the issue. Now I only take meds twice a week. I’m thankful that is helping. I was ready to quit, say fuck it. Start selling my shit. Save the money for cremation quit. So I’m very thankful today and everyday I wake up that issue has a fix. The left shoulder was never an issue until August 2020. Hell, I still went kayaking after I broke it. Fucking rowed 6 miles with a stress fractured left gleniod (scapula). That bone looked like a spider had webbed his way through the last 10mm of that bone. No surgery Bc of my age. I rehabbed through that pain. Now over a year later, stronger in the upper body than I’ve been in years; now this happens. The pain from this injury hasn’t been terrible. It’s been more annoying than anything. Yes it has hurt but not terrible like the spinal cord nerve pain. That’s just another level of pain. The bicep is probably the more painful than any of it. When I flex u can see the muscle is balled up. Kinda neat looking. Kinda painful too. When that happened I knew what it was. But that just happened maybe a month ago. Combining all of it together in the same area has become more pain than I care to deal with. I need that arm. My back is a lot to deal with. I need my arm to do shit. To help me walk on days when I can’t very well. My body is failing me. My dreams are still coming true. 😡 So now I’ll wait until Tuesday to see the surgeon and do pre-op. My life is hard enough. Now this. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. For now I guess I’m done. (PJE 65 11.25.2021)
