#335am

Sleepy. Scared. Tired. I cant schleeeeep omg

335am and now I don't know if I need to be sick or I'm hungry. I feel like I'm going to throw up everywhere but then my tummy does this weird thing and the idea of that makes me a little hungry but then the idea of that makes me want to be sick.

Happy birthday, Dad / I'm sorry for all the attitude I dish out, it's how I hide my vulnerability / these days, words seem to have a much greater impact on how I feel (nearly everything does) / two more days until I get to see you again / will this motivation also be short-lived? / I'm afraid / I cry too much / it's confusing, but I'd rather be depressed than be happy because I don't know what to do with myself when I am happy / what do I pack to go to Florida? / I love you.

ah~ being at home is so lonely~~~~ eeeecckk.... can't sleep~ POOP. donating blood tmrw! && SR PICS! boy do i look gorgeous ): LACKOFSLEEPNOBUENO! i look and feel so dead. AHHH!