#30daysofhealing

For 30 days, I will….

1) Go without men!  It means no sex, no dating, no energy or time spent chasing, sleeping with or courting men.” From: http://theartofcharm.com/confidence/30-days-without-girls-building-masculine-core-strength/ (although this is for men going without women, I just reversed it!) 2) Do a 15-minute posture exercise  3) Read a positive book/blog for 10 mins/day 4) “Show up” with my hygiene, skin care, and dress (Idea from http://artofabeautifullife.com/free-printable-30-day-challenge/30-day-challenge-daily-confidence-challenge-002/) 5) Complete each day of self-esteem list http://mentalillnessmouse.tumblr.com/post/30543827639/30-day-self-esteem-challenge) 6)  Remember and record a time you were confident. Remember, record and reread each day. (taken from http://www.tcnorth.com/how-to-be-confident-30-days-to-build-massive-confidence/)

“EXERCISE: Your Story

This might be the time for you to write a brief story of your life. Begin with your childhood. Use more paper if you need to.”

Excerpt From: Louise Hay. “Love Yourself, Heal Your Life Workbook.” iBooks. https://itun.es/us/Go2wy.l

My story: I was born a chubby baby to John and Virginia. My father sold fireworks and struggled with depression and alcoholism for most of my youth but I was always loved and never wanted. I was overweight as a child and this made me feel insecure and as I began to get picked on I turned the bad feelings inward. I became depressed and even though I was smart and graduated high school with honors and had friends, I hated myself and was very depressed. When I lost weight in my early 20’s I started partying to make up for lost time. I got into a string of bad relationships because I didn’t have any self worth nor did I believe I deserved something healthy and loving in my life because I never felt that way about myself. I have slowly start to look for love in myself now but I have much to work on because I still feel very bad about myself. 

Whats your story?

xoxo