#30cc

nurse kills themself over being convinced theyre being left out and that evrryone hates them asmr

im back :)

i should decide how i want to be killed.. i dont think i want there to be blood while im conscious because blood means somethigs really badly hurt and i dont have a high pain tolerance. strangulation can also hurt a lot unless your neck gets broken. maybe a hanging so my neckll snap instantly? or a gunshot to the head or something. hmm

i think about that one post on /r/n0sleep a lot that was referenced/linked in dd!c (dont wanna disturb tags) about murdering that woman a lot. my murderer should write the story when they kill me, with all the details. im sure someone out there is just as curious about killing someone, and id love to help them make up their mind either way. i like helping a lot

man as a kid i was convinced the way i was gonna go was id get really sick and open up to a nurse about my mental health or some shit and id ask to just be put down and theyd do it. i fantasized about it a lot actually. i figured that was gonna be my out, but now that my immune systems beginning to recover from all of that bullshit i dont think thatll happen for a long time and its a little sad because consentual homocide is illegal and if my murderer got in trouble for killing me that wouldnt be fair because i wanted them to kill me