I had to pick up for a lot of people.
I had to run a mile and a half more than I had to for other people.
I did a lot even if I had little to nothing left to give.
I lost weight, I lost appetite, and if I don't regain it, I'm not sure what's going to happen to me.
I lost my grandfather, whom I shared a deep bond with as well as a birthday. I lost my uncle figuratively, as he awoke from his coma, but the damage too his brain had been too severe and he now finds himself in a vegetative state.
And yet, in this year, I have grown a lot as a person. I have met many people (some I met in 2010 and just got to know but at the very end) who have changed my life for the better (and a few for the worse) here on Tumblr. I've witnessed kindness where I did not think I deserved it, out of quite the few people who have been willing to give me something I didn't think I should have.
Friendship, it helped me pull through this year financially, and also emotionally.
I have a lot of people to thank, irl and on the internet. Hell, Ray and Regol have already offered to help out should we run short on food because of my dad's asshole employer, when they don't really have to and hdjkfahjsf
It's been a deep reminder of how while some humans may be outright cunts, others are so willing to give it's unreal. Be it financial help, or even kind words and a smile to help you keep trucking on. I have experienced this.
And I have also passed it on.
I'd like to list every single person ever who helped me this year, but the list would be too big to bare and I fear I'd forget names.
So I'll give a big mention to those who have been a leaning shoulder for a big part of this year:
GLM (all of YOU, YOU MAGGOTS <3 )
My nieces and nephews, my younger and elder cousins
Grandfather on mom's side
Grandmother on dad's side
Joo (even through that one stressful time when........)
The ask blog community in Pokémon
aND JUST EVERYONE I'VE HAD REMOTE CONTACT WITH AND HDJFHAJSK
Idk, guys, if it was not for you, I don't think I'd have made it. All of you.
I do regret falling out of some friendships, notably the fact that Sammy and I don't really talk much at all (which I find upsetting, but I suppose she finds it relieving?).
And perhaps Gold, considering that she's cut me from her communication circuit for some reason, as well as Sasabi. I'm still unsure as to what happened and my nature has not allowed me to question it, so I will merely tolerate it and try to move forth.
I also do regret meeting... certain people, but it's how it goes, I suppose.
All in all, I look forward to this year.
It is the year of the Snake, and my older sister has graduated and is now job seeking.
And I hope it brings her luck, at least.
