01.24.25
dear friend,
today was pretty okay. i was alone for most of the day which is sometimes hard. took a couple dabs & stared at the wall for a bit. i knew moving 30 mins away from my friends would be an adjustment, but damn the brain is suffering. i wish they’d come see me more, i wish i could go see them more. moved from one small town to another so making friends prob wont be easy. do people still use Bumble to find friends??? 🤣
things with hubby are amazing. it’s been 4 months since we got married. we are recently trying to have a baby. it seems like for some people it’s so easy to get pregnant, hasn’t been as much as for me but i’m still hopeful 🤞🏻i honestly find myself getting jealous of people who are announcing their pregnancies but trying to not get in that mindset.
in terms of my anxiety, eh. i’m not spiraling, having panic attacks but the chest gets heavy most of the time. i’m honestly scared weed is hindering me, but how do i quit??? i also love it. i hate that you can’t pick and choose what high you’re gonna get 🤣
working on being patient and kind to myself this month <3
xxx much love
**posting pics in my journal posts- of myself, memes, etc. just how i’m feelin in the moment
