#29.07.

Yk I think (or like to think) Crowley knows that Aziraphale loves him back, which in turn makes the scene much more hurtful because imagine losing someone who you know in your core loves you as well, but that fact alone is not enough for them to choose you over their toxic family.

Imagine it started raining when Aziraphale left with Metatron while Crowley was watching to see if he’d change his mind last minute.

Imagine it just starts pouring and Crowley is soaking wet but he doesn’t move and just keeps staring at Aziraphale who doesn’t get wet because of Metatrons Angel-Mojo or smth or because he‘s already in the elevator.

No wing to shield Crowley. No wing to shield Aziraphale who feels more cold because whatever is protecting him from the rain isn’t doing it out of love.

No taking shelter under a canopy. No heartfelt confessions.

Not this time. Not for them.

There you are thinking you know someone and suddenly it turns out they‘re an author.

After seeing the first few minutes of the first episode i can’t help but wonder if that moment also was a factor for Aziraphale to act against the plan to end the world/universe.

He saw how Crowley more or less brought the universe into being (he even helped him - this world is basically their baby) and how excited he was and how sad when he heard that the plan is to destroy everything after only 6000 years.

This thing, earth and the universe are so important to Crowley from the very beginning and Aziraphale only starts to get it over time just like he gets to know Crowley over time. He grows fond of Crowley and the world simultaneously, those two relationships are therefore tightly linked to each other.

This means that earth and the universe are such a vital part of their relationship that it being destroyed, even if they both survive it, still means that a big chunk of their own selves get torn away. The sole existence of the universe and humans is basically the symbol of their connection. They‘re part of the reason why everything is and why everything will continue to be.

To put it short: