#28.11.2016

Boob job update Today is exactly 6 weeks after the surgery. Everything is healed nicely, besides the couple spots where my body is expelling the stitches instead of absorbing them. One the thread bit is out, the wound closes of nicely within three days. I'm going to schedule my check up in two weeks because that's when I can find time of work. Anxiety is a bitch these days and it looks like depression came to join the party? I gotta keep an eye on myself and how this will change. Am I getting into my "Christmas mood"? I'll try taking the D, that should help with SAD and my joint pain - the right knee is randomly bursting into pain on some days and I don't have the spoons to deal with the doctors. My ortho might be a good specialist (according to reviews) but she didn't help me much and made me cry when I wanted a statement from her so that the insurance would pay for the boob job. That time I went in anxious and depressed, so I want to feel better when I see her again.

OH MEIN GOTT ICH WILL AUSFLIPPEN... Verdammte scheisse, ich halt das nicht mehr lange durch, aber ich MUSS

Ich hasse mich dafür, dass ich dich liebe.