I stood in a blinding white light, but I may as well have been deep in the womb-like embrace of total darkness. Though my body was physically standing there, staring at what lay before me, my mind and being were lost in the metaphysical realm of total thought.
In that place my doubts are mountains and my fears the creatures that dwell in their caves. When I was younger the mountains were no threat to me, I had all the time in the world to plan, advance, and recover on my journey. Staring back now though I could see that the very titans I thought I had conquered were but hills that could leisurely be strolled across.
Now I have a choice to make. Where do I choose to climb? Knowing I may not live long enough to descend again. Knowing that there may not even be a way down. Knowing that this could be the last time I get to peek over the clouds.
I continue to stare and in my peripheral vision I can see the wily strands of my beard encroaching onto the image like a badly designed black metal logo. Like the roots of Yggdrasil they stretch back through all the worlds I encompass. They snake through time to all versions of me and I remember the choices that have led me to this moment.
It used to be so easy.
But now, how I can I possibly choose. Knowing that my career could be affected, knowing that my life can be altered, knowing that my time is limited.
How can I decide? As I contemplated my life at the Best Buy I asked myself aloud, “Do I get the new Rock Band...or the new Guitar Hero?”
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