#24jan2016

#24Jan2016 #Wedding #Red&White #Morjim (at Morjim,Goa)

its all ive been able to think about lately. the navy kinda eliminated any chance of me having any type of relationship with anyone. like i cant start something with anyone here because im leaving in a few months. i cant start something with anyone while im in the navy because ill constantly be moving. even the one person i wanted the most was taken from me for the navy. but no matter what situation im in, im always left questioning why i would put in so much time and effort and grow so much feelings for someone if i know im just gonna have to let them go eventually. i would just being hurting myself. i cant even just mess around with anybody because even though fucking and leaving would have just been my intention, i know ill grow feelings. thats the type of person i am. im the loving type. i dont just talk to someone for my own pleasure, but because i genuinely care about them. because they make me happy and i want to make them just as happy. id want us to be happy together. thats the one thing ive always dreamed of having. to find someone and have a real relationship with real feelings and titles. to know i have someone that loves me for sure, and know we’ll have each other no matter what. to just lay in bed and talk about anything for hours. to become one with someone and have those talks about whose home we’re spending thanksgiving or christmas at. to feel like time didnt exist and that we could just love each other forever. but with the navy i cant have any of that. ill always feel the need to cut myself off from everyone because i dont wanna be hurt when i have to say goodbye. dont get me wrong, im not saying i hate the navy, or that i regret joining. im actually really excited to start my life in the navy. but what ive realized about life in the navy is that being in a relationship cant be apart of it. it took away my dream. i wont be able to love someone for a long time. and i cant help but feel like ill always be alone.

اؤمن بعلم الطاقة بعد دا الموضوع هههه ، ح لو صدفة 💙 الي اعرفو انو اشعر باللطف ناحية الارتباط والصدفة.

Amrita's Wedding Day!! 👫 Our chotu is getting married.. Mixed Feeling.. We Will miss her 😔 #24Jan2016 #weddingdiaries #wedding #besties #instapic #instadaily #instashare ☺ (at Ratlam)