No.247
I have a strong feeling of displacement. I don’t know where I belong. Partly because I hardly develop a deep attachment to anywhere and I already lost intense attachments to certain ‘someone’(s). That’s why now I’m really dislocated. I don’t know where I want to be or whom I want to be with. I’m just like my Mom. I’m sick of knowing what I already know. I’m sick of acknowledging it every time it comes to the surface again. I’m sick of repetitive circles.
Past relationships including the one with Mom and her influence have traumatized me. I am drifted further away from Collective emotions and sociality due to the Past, resulting in a loose bond with Community. The thin line connecting me to Social World is very unstable. I think there was time I even cut it off… And now I am trying to mend the broken string again.
I want to find Home. To the place where I belong - where I could settle down and spend my life - where I could be with my loved ones.











