i know that it’s stupid
i know that it’s stupid, and i am your friend.
and i probably am just going around the bend.
it doesn’t quite feel, like you’re standing with me.
it feels like i’m drifting, away at sea.
like i have so much to live up to.
but, it might just be me overthinking this too.
there are so many others, whom i have to compete.
just so i’m not standing in defeat.
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i know that it’s stupid, and i am your friend.
and i am probably just going around the bend.
but i don’t want you to stress.
not telling you is the best.
i know how you worry, and i don’t want it for me.
you’re too good of a person, why can’t you just see.
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i know that it’s stupid, and probably a lie.
but it seems like i’m only half there sometimes.
it’s like i’m drifting in and out of reality, no way to escape.
falling deeper and deeper into black holes of fate.
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i know that’s stupid, and i’m just a mess.
it’s like there is no freedom, for how i speak, act or dress.
and reality is really making me stress.
i know i will still have to face the truth.
with responsibility and trying to learn, while i’m still in my youth.
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i know that it’s stupid, but i don’t what to do.
do i do this for me, or do i do this for you.
so many choses i’ve had to make so fast.
it feels like my freedom is never to last.
i know that i’m young and have much to learn.
but i just want to escape and never return.
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i know that it’s stupid, but i need time to wonder.
i just need time to stop for a little longer.
it’s all happening so fast.
how do i know, if it’s going to last?
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i know that it’s stupid, but it’s how i got through.
lucky for me there was these two.
that will be there whatever i do.
no they’re not my parents, though that should be the case.
there just two youtubers, who’ve gone with me all over the place.
they have been there for me, though they don’t even know I exist.
and I was so close to telling them, but I just missed.
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i know that’s its stupid, and this needs to end.
hopefully before i go around the bend.
i don’t how i will make up my mind.
hopefully before i reach the end of the line.
