This was a quiet two weeks spent watching hp and yoi and recharging. I'm not feeling very Christmassy, but more than last year and pretty good all things considered. I think I'm looking forward to the wedding kinda? We're gonna tell the families on Sunday! I am scared how they will react. Mostly because we're presenting a mostly set up thing and obviously don't care about their opinions. My fam probably will be ok, because they wouldn't have had much input, but signif's fam doesn't really grasp that he'll be 30 next year and is living *his* life (as opposed to being a Sims character for them). Next week were watching a musical with friends and I ask so looking forward to that. I love musicals and I've wanted to see cats. I am torn how to dress though. I have had a low key self-hate for a while now. I thought it was because I was overpeopled but it's not going away? Could it be that I'm dysphoric about my boobs because these days I'm using cream on them daily? I did notice the unpleasant feeling rising when apply the anti scar cream. I took a break for two days and I started to feel a bit better so maybe I'll ask signif to apply the cream? IDK My scars are healing ok without the cream too, so I might reduce the dose and me focusing on my boobs. I'm more or less happy with my figure but sometimes my perspective of myself gets weird and deformed and I have to figure out what is causing it this time. Anxiety meanwhile behaves ok. Trololo. *sighs* brain when will you give me a break?