#2012 stuff

I've gained many friends on this site and I value these friendships alot. You guys put up with my annoying and dumb ass on a daily basis so i thank u and i love you very much☺ Although I gained many relationships with people, I lost one of them through anon hate. I know, y'all are probably thinking bad stuff about me now but it really is something that I heavily regret. I don't know what I was thinking when I did that because I would have NEVER done that, but obviously, i did and if you're reading this ((the person i sent hate to)) i am truly, very sorry. ((but she probably wouldnt see that bc she doesn't follow me anymore lol i tried to work things out but hey u have to pay the price of being a bad friend right)) ((ps. that was the first and last anon hate message i have ever sent so if y'all are re-evaluating your trust w/ me or your friendship w/ me i promise from the bottom of my v fat heart i am a good person and you can trust me w/ anything))

Another negative thing i guess about this year is just not committing to my weight loss. Like if y'all have noticed, I am v fat and i am the fattest girl in my family. So starting tomo and on going, i mean it, I am going to exercise and eat healthy and I am going to be thin and I will finally be comfortable in my own skin!!!☺ 

ANOTHER negative thing not really but i see it as negative is moving schools. Like i love my friends so much and I was finally comfortable talking to guys until suddenly i move and i have to start over again building my "perf social life" that took 4 years to mold/build/make w/e SIGH but obvies i can't do anything about it but embrace it so ya i always look at things i don't really like in a negative way ok i'm sorry

So to sum up the negative parts, basically i did bad things, i lacked motivation and commitment, and i look at things i don't like in a negative way!! SOO NOW OFF TO THE POSITIVES

one of my biggest highlights of the year was OBVIOUSLY the btr concert AND being a worldwide girl AND touching and doing things with Kendall that literally only happens in my dreams!! i love btr so much and honestly i've never been so into a band/celebrity in my whole life lol they make me vvv happy☺ 

((i don't mean to sound "cocky" or "over confident" but before the btr concert, i had SO many dreams of me being chosen as a worldwide girl and like i probably had like 2 dreams about it a month until the beginning of september lol sigh i'm so grateful for it and it's something that was on my bucketlist so yiss yiss muddafuckas))

tumblr friendships obviously like i wish to meet all you guys one day i really really do because y'all have helped me alot for some reason like besides that fact that i am more sarcastic bc of y'all, you guys make me laugh and smile and witty and i love y'all

aaaand i think that's it lol 

ok my new year's resolutions include:

reach my goal weight and stay there forever

get a job

save more money and shop smart ((cause i have a mild habit of buying whatever i can get like if this thing is $15 at a certain store but then it's like $8 at another store i will probably buy the $15 one just cause it's there already and i want it))

get more sleep

to break my small procrastination habit

to never give up and to always always always try my best no matter what i'm doing even if it's gym in the morning s i g h

to not look at "bad things" if y'all know what i mean i know ew i hate it ew ew ew

to be more organized and clean