#2009phan

Previous:chapter 1

Chapter 2-when I kissed you on the Manchester

(Note:I’m currently reading bluebird which is fricking fantastic but here is chapter 2 anyway I hope you enjoy it takes place in the week that dan met phil (near the end))

Warning:uh something that happened in the v day vid happens here

Do you remember the time when I kissed you on the Manchester eye?

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Do you remember the time back in 2009?

The following week week with phil had been the best of dans life and before dan knew it he was falling in love with phil all over again

Maybe not falling,because dan could never seem to be falling when it came to phil

But of course dan would never tell phil that,because he couldn’t cross the line

He wouldn’t cross the line

Until he did

Or maybe he didn’t,maybe it was phil that crosses the barrier between them,but regardless it had been crossed

And maybe that was okay,but they didn’t know that

And maybe it wasn’t,but they didn’t know that either

>•<

By the time phil had managed to show dan every crook and cranny of the lester household,he was knew

He just knew

He had seen the way dans sparkling brown eyes lingered on his figure and he had seen the loving expression that was directed his way yet never supposed to be anywhere near him every time he saw Daniel Howell

And he just knew that dan was falling in love with him

And although he didn’t know it,he was falling in love too

Or maybe love had just crashed down on him with the words DAN DAN DAN on every part of it

But that was okay

Because if he could talk to dan for 5 hours on skype he was pretty sure he could let dan in his heart

If only dan would let him

>•<

Phil had said something,dan just needed to know what

“Dan?hello?earth to Daniel”

“Sorry what did you say?”dan questioned

“I asked if you wanted to go to the Manchester wheel today,they are putting up lights it will be fun!”phil seemed genuinely excited to go out with dan and that made Dan’s heart flutter in ways he didn’t know existed

‘I don’t know phil it’s already pretty dark out...”

Phil had to choke back a laugh, god dan was such a worry wart sometimes

“Don’t worry I’ll take of you in the big scary city” phil teased making dan blush various shades of red

“Okay fine but if we get mugged in blaming you”

Phil laughed, and then dan laughed too and in that moment that was all that mattered because dan and phil were happy and they were together too

>•<

dan immediately regretted not bringing a coat as soon as he felt the icy wind slap his tanned face from side to side

“You okay?”

“Yeah I’m fine,just a bit chilly”

Phil immediately felt a knot of guilt tie in his stomach

“We can go back if you want-if it’s too cold for you”

phil really didn’t want dan to get a cold or something,especially since he was leaving the next morning

Dans laugh echoed in the hollow streets of Manchester “no it’s fine,I’m fine let’s just get going”

“You sure you don’t want to go back to get a coat or something?”

“Phil I’m fine,I’m always fine”dan reassured the elder

But dan wasn’t always fine,and he wouldn’t be fine in the years to come and maybe he never would be but he didn’t know that yet and neither did phil,so they set out on their journey to the Manchester eye

>•<

Dan could practically feel phils warm breath against the ice cold surface of the pod

Phils eyes scanned the view,biting his lip as he tried to take in as much as he could

The lights,the sky, and though he wouldn’t admit it- dan

God you’re so pretty Philip lester

Dan almost said it too- he almost spoke the words he’d promised never to say, he almost crossed the invisible line,almost

But the words had gotten stuck in his throat,choked down never to be seen again-well for now anyway

“Phil” he breathed, everything was too much

phil was too much, the lack space between them was too much and yet not quite enough

“Da-“

But before phil could finish dan had crossed the line

He had broken the wall

He had demolished the barrier

And suddenly the space between them was non existent and dans lips were on phils and they were together abd seraching and lights were shining but dan couldn’t possibly see because all he could hear,all he could see,smell taste was phil

Maybe it was just for a few seconds,or minutes or perhaps even hours

But when dan pulled away his life had changed

What have I done

“Phil I’m so sorry I-“

But then he realised

Phil had kissed back

Phil had kissed back

And then dan died a million times all at once because phil has kissed back and right now that was all that mattered

And then the space between them was no more once again

But this time it wasn’t dan who broke the barrier,it was phil

But maybe this time there wasn’t a barrier to break

And when phil pulled away dans vision was swimming because he was being intoxicated by phil phil phil and the pretty lights behind him didn’t matter because he could see phil and he could smell phil and most importantly he taste phil in his lips

Dan liked phil

Phil liked him back

And maybe they always liked each other and maybe they never did stop even if in the years to come that’s not how it seemed

and maybe they never will stop liking each other

And maybe that’s okay regardless of how many times they stop and start up again because in the end,you will always have dan and phil

Because it’s dan and it’s phil

And you can’t have one without the other

And that’s okay

In fact,it’s more than okay

(Note:okay I just realised that ending makes it seem like the end but watch out cuz y’all r gonna get some 2012 action too bec im angsty- actually maybe you won’t

Nah you probs will this ain’t the end love you biiiii)