Now I'm starting to question why I'm still doing these posts. These so-called rants really. Sometimes, when all that's lost remains. Drink from the fountain of youth and never age again. Good song, nice beat. But actually it's been awhile since I've found a song that made me get goosebumps the very second it hits its very first melody or the lyrics. I miss that feeling. I mean I keep one playlist on repeat and beats me how it's so all over the place. Especially when I put it in shuffle, I surprise myself on how I put all these songs together in one place and try to listen to it. It's just weird how it would go from some acoustic hipster song then bam some Korean song then next it would be instrumental. Maybe that's why I jump into different moods very fast. Now why am I typing about this? I just jumped into talking about music when really I wanted to type about why I do these posts. Weird. I'm not making sense at all, but who reads this except for me and you, yes you, person and maybe the other one too and maybe other anonymous people I don't know... I don't get how you can still be friends with me which I'm grateful of, but I wonder if you think I'm a lunatic or maybe even weirder now since I'm basically putting some part of me here that no one knows outside of the 'real world'. Wait, actually I think I put only about 20% of me in here, but it's 20% that I rarely put out. And I don't know why now, but I feel guilty to not being able to actually tell people about what's going on in my head and well whatever goes down in my head goes down here. Somewhat of it. And I'm grateful? thankful..? I don't know the word, but it's nice that somehow I'm still a bit understandable and tolerable? Yeah doesn't make sense. Maybe I should start putting out confessions here, maybe that will scare the crap out of somebody. For example, the simple line drawing I did on my arm. I never thought I would do it, but when you have the perfect storm of confusion in your head, anything is possible. Yeah that's the only thing..haha yep that's it, that's the only crucial one and least bit of a confession and probably the last. I should stop saying "I don't know", I know it's like a filler or something for some thought I didn't want to type down. Maybe I am a complete fool embarrassing myself here. Oh well, I can't stop what I already started.