#19.01.16

❌ go to see g+g in the afternoon w/mum

🍊 call first!

🌸 work on any painting that’s left

🌸 remove as much as possible

🌸 cut shelf

❌ get shelf brackets

🌸 put up shelf

I’m trying. I’m trying to start and pick up all of the dusty pieces that I left lying around the four corners of my room, my soul, my heart, my life.

I have been in a constant limbo for the year 2018, and though i’ve made a few attempts to move forward, it has indeed been a great struggle. Have I come to terms with what i’m dealing? asking this question, maybe I already have. Though I can’t say for sure and officially I am til I get clinically checked which I doubt I’ll do anytime soon. 

I want to move forward, not because its the new year. No, I want to move forward for myself, because I have to, because I cannot stay in this limbo forever. I’ve been here long enough. I have to, I must. 

I was at school in our usual classroom. It’s a room with many big windows on two walls. We heared a ringing, so our break was over. The teacher for the next class came and he looked somewhat familiar to me. I shook that feeling off and tried to concentrate.

But things got even stranger. He didn’t start like the other teachers to introduce himself or the subject we’d study today, he wanted to tell us a story. Just like it be the most normal thing he turned off the loghts and rolled down the blinds so the atmosphere got even spookier. He started to tell and wanted us to pay attention so we’d tell him in the end if the story was true or false…

Sitting next to the windows wasn’t a good idea I figuered  , since it was summer or a warm spring and the windows were fully open. All of a sudden two different young people came through the window . They scared me so much and were now laughing at my reaction.

Somehow as I saw these two coming from the window it made ‘click’ and I recognized all three of them.

“You look different in your vids” I said and they tured to me, flashing a big smile.

“Thats right. And now people let’s show something real.”

“By the way, storyteller your story is false. It’s so obvious this time”, the other said and laughed. He sure had a funny laugh. It didn’t fit his appearance at all.

We started to write a quick and little test. I think I did well.

Cheryl Fernandez-Versini will have to stay married to Jean-Bernard for three full years before they’re allowed to divorce thanks to laws on the island where they married, according to a lawyer.

The pair tied the knot on the idyllic Caribbean isle of Mustique, where strict Grenadine laws mean divorces are only allowed in exceptional circumstances.

Amicable divorces without adultery or abuse involved in the case are very unlikely to be considered.

As Cheryl has only been married for just under a year and a half, she’ll have to wait until July 2017 before she can officially call herself single again.

While the cause of Cheryl and Jean-Bernard’s split has not been made official, is has been reported they drifted apart after a ‘whirlwind romance’ – which doesn’t sound particularly exceptional as a reason to end the marriage.

Stephen Williams, partner of law firm Williams & Williams based in St Vincent, told Now Magazine: ‘The only way of circumventing the three-year rule is if you can prove exceptional circumstances.

‘The question, in that case, is what exactly constitutes “exceptional”.’

Cheryl may be a big star in Europe, but it doesn’t look like she’ll be given special treatment regarding this matter either.

He added: ‘You’d have to argue some sort of abuse or perhaps, at a stretch, adultery. But if you’re talking about an amicable divorce then you have to wait until the three years are up and that’s that.

‘It doesn’t matter if you’re the Queen herself – the law is the law.’

The news follows the row over Cheryl’s fortune, which husband Jean-Bernard is thought to have wildly overestimated.

Cheryl’s rep has declined to comment.