#17dec2018

I have been having quite a bit of a difficult time this past couple of weeks. This is despite the fact that I had the most relaxing and chill two weeks. It’s just been a difficult time personally, in terms of my struggle with finding a job and just being motivated to send out resumes. It has been tough and the topic of not getting a job has been a point of breakdown several times this past month. I am trying to get myself to a better position mentally to start the new year with. But sometimes, it is just difficult. I don’t know how else to describe how I am feeling but I just feel like I am being crushed by the weight of not getting a job. And I do not know how to handle it. I have been withdrawing into my own little bubble as usual and I am trying very hard to still go out and stuff. But it is just easier to deal with it myself than answer people’s questions. I am not usually big on the new year and what not, but I think it will be a good opportunity for me to just reset and restart my job search with a clearer head and more positive mindset. I am planning on using these last two weeks of 2018 to just get to a clean slate and hopefully that will give me a clearer head when I head into both the new year and my birthday.