I NEVER wanted to feel this way about you.

I NEVER wanted to not be able to talk to you.

I NEVER wanted to do all this breakup shit, go back to tumblr and make a playlist. It’s therapeutic, and I’m in my shitty sad element, fucking duh!! But oh my god obviously I wish none of it had happened and I could text you and scream and tell you to get your ass over here and take it all back!!!

I NEVER wanted you to be my ex-boyfriend.

I NEVER wanted to lose you, EVER.

I never thought I would.

I really, really, genuinely thought we were forever.

I know you did too. I think. Wow, can you Imagine how cool it would be if we could have one honest fucking conversation again? Where your eyes aren’t lifeless and numb and you’re just agreeing with everything I’m saying and apologizing like a fucking robot? You fucking dipshit, it’s fucking CRAZY HOW PISSED I AM AT YOU

I CAN’T BELIEVE I’M YOUR FUCKING EX-GIRLFRIEND

WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU TALK TO ME ABOUT OUR WEDDING? OUR FIRST DANCE? OUR KIDS NAMES? WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU EVER SAY ANY OF THIS SHIT OUT LOUD TO ME????????????