โ ย i can love only what i can place so high above me that i cannot reach it. ย โย
in the meme tag somewhere โฑ 1268dr.
โโโ ... โ with astarion leading most of the conversation, he wonders how much of this was drunken rambling and how much came from a hidden place. after all, alcohol was merely a catalyst for what sat fermenting in the deepest confines of his head. xia fei didn't realize it was his turn to speak until the moment's silence lingered a heartbeat too long, with nothing but the crackling fire - and the occasional sigh of this ghostly-cursed lands, whistling distant echoes of the damned to fill the stillness. โ ah. โ he didn't want to dissuade him from sharing unfiltered thoughts, didn't wish to meet him with silence when he dares test the waters to lay even a fraction his heart out in the open.
โโhis eyes briefly close to gather his own muddled head to form something coherent. he's fortunate not to have reached the threshold where his own senses and self-restraint have been overcome. as his eyelids flutter open again, he offers astarion a calm, attentive look, โ must you really deny yourself that kind of bliss? not that there's any rush to seek such things, considering our situation. but why set it so high above you? like you're too far below to deserve it? โ
โโastarion was his own eccentric fog of mystery, veiling parts of himself behind shadows and drifting mist. he only presents the ever-so-faint silhouette of his innermost thoughts. if not that, he scatters a crimson red herring to misdirect any unwanted prodding. deviate entirely from what he truly meant if one were to creep too close for his liking. unfortunately for him, xia fei was persistent in conversation as he was resilient in battle. he knows his way around falsities and illusions, too - heโs lived a whole century steeped in them. or rather, what his vague, fragmented memory has led him to believe so far. โ you have the freedom now to reach for whatever you may want. and i'll be around to keep those away from you who try to take it. why hold back? โ