Dang, best... It's been a while hasn't it..? Well, here.. I'll update you on some of the things that's been happening for the past couple months...
Obviously, me & Jake are no longer together. I had a good time, being with him. It was a blessing to have blindly fallen in love with that kid. But, it's time to move on, right? Seems like it was just yesterday we were telling each other how much we love each other and that we were gonna go on our first date, by doing a drive by. & Go to the P.I & Hawaii. Please, watch over him. Wherever he is. & If you didn't know. The reason why we broke up, is because of Lack of communication... I lost a lot of feelings because, we just didn't talk at all. IT was really hard making the choice of leaving him or staying with him. He was a good guy, and he's blessed... I guess, love isn't for me at the moment. I miss you, bubba.. )': I wish you were here with me. But, I bet you'd be making fun of me right now. Or we'd probably be eating Mcdonalds. <3 Hahaha, gosh I miss talking to you. I remember, you would get hit on by guys on aim. & You would tell me you're creeped out & shit. Hahaha! Oh gosh. There's so many memories with you. I really need you, bubba. I need you.
I hate love, I hate the things that are happening.
Anyways, I've been talking to this guy. But, I'm getting really confused about it. Because, I feel like we're still in the flirting stage. & IT's not that I wanna rush into being serious. But, my feelings are starting to get serious about this guy. But, I feel like it's gonna be the same thing that happened with me & Jake. I don't want that, you know that. I don't know why I fall for guys so easily. I have my guards up at all times, but sometimes I have the sense that they're worth it. But, at the end? Who knows if they are worth it or not... I don't wanna waste my time anymore, but I still wanna wait..? UGH! That's the problem, best. I don't wanna wait any longer. Because, me waiting on him. Feels like I'm waiting on Jake... & Yes, it does suck. It sucks big balls...
I miss you, bubba. Thanks for listening. I hope you guide me through the right route. I'll see you soon, k big booty bitch? I LOVE YOU. *Muah!