#122514

Today sucked. But I guess there's always a silver lining. I'm 2/3 through my book and I started to learn stick again which was the silver lining. The shitty part was that I feel completely alone and my other half is leaving for meps and its all so real. The worst part is that I realized that although he's my other half, we're not meant to be. We're great as friends and we would make a good team and I love talking to him but I can't date him. You were my Christmas miracle. My favorite present and the most precious gift I'll ever receive. But... He is Gatsby and I am Daisy and he just doesn't understand. I know I'm a bad person but I'm sorry, this is just how it has to be. I love you and I hope you can forgive me. We need our time apart.

Special shout out to this amazing guy raider2016 cuz not only has he been working his ass off to get his grades up but he got a job and things are finally looking up 🙏🏽👍🏼

It’s been a long year so far and it’s only been four months. Should I leave you and deal with being upset for a while or stay with you and deal with my parents for the next few months and not be able to see you and constantly hide our relationship. This is all stupid. I honestly can’t deal with this anymore and I wish I wouldn’t have texted you first the one night we started talking. I wish I would’ve just stayed away from you so I wouldn’t be dealing with this now

raider2016