1.19.17
yesterday was the starting point of something new in my life..
almost my entire college experience was you. you were the constant in my life. you were my entire world.. so when you told me the honest truth, my world came crashing down.
i lie to you now, but worse i lie to myself. i tell myself i don’t love you anymore, i tell myself things have changed. i tell myself if fate exists, it will come into play.
but honestly, it’s time to move on. i never thought i’d say those words.. i never thought there would be this day, ever. from the first day we started dating. from that first night at karma. from the first moment in wendy’s.
if i could start over with you, i would in a heartbeat. i’d redo it all, i’d take back the angry words, the stupid fights, and leave the san jac days we’d just cuddle in bed, the cute vacations we took together, all the punch buggies in the world, and every moment going to bed and waking up with you.
if things in this lifetime are meant to work out a certain way, they will. i’m not holding onto the hope that you and i will get back together.
i deserve someone who was the old tuotuo. the one i met at wendys, the dorky cute sweet guy who would always care about me in every single way. i dunno if this is a phase of your personality, but i hope you find out that you were perfect the way you were. i loved you for who you were.
from the bottom of my heart, i want you to be happy, and that’s how i know i’ll always care for you.
thank you for teaching me what a relationship is, thank you for making me a better person. thank you tuotuo, from the bottom of my broken heart.
