Fears To be honest I still have fears of not having you for the rest of my life. And it sucks. I want you so bad. The possibilities that you told me, "not meeting you in 2 years, or ever", shatters me and my dreams more than anything. I know it's hard baby. It really is. There are times that I feel really bad for being too far away from you. And yes, being the emotional creature I am, I cry; let those beads of saltwater cure my longing or at least ease the pain of having to bear another day without you by my side. 

Hope I try to look for the gold in the rubble, the possibilities in the sea of doubt, the right amidst the storm of wrong. I still hope. Aside from determination I have high hopes of meeting you. And I will work hard to see you because I want you so bad L. So bad sometimes it hurts. No always.

So I beg baby, please stay with me for as long as you can. I can't imagine life without you my love.

I translated one of my favorite filipino song for you; this came from a song entitled, "Bawat Daan", which is "Every Way" in English: "With every wave of your hand, you guide my way.

The only truth in a pack of fallacies. My shade from tears and grieving.

If you will trace out of my heart, you are the start, middle, and end. 

I found you, I waited for so long, I found you.

If i get lost, or lose my way home, get trapped into emptiness, 

For every when, who, or where, you are my answer.

Every Left or Right,

West or North,

Every single way leads back to you"