#11.25.13

we had the API performance today and it was super amazing! i feel like i was able to bond with The Crew more and we really performed as a team. the adrenaline was great and it really made the 3 minutes feel like it was only a minute. i don't even remember being on stage. by the time i was on, the performance was over. i screwed up a few times, but being on stage with the others really made me feel more confident and less self-conscious of all my moves. Karina also came out to watch with her friend and i was REALLY touched and happy. i had wished that Cassidy and Sharon would have made it, but Cassidy was busy and Sharon didn't get the proper invite which was my fault. but Karina didn't really get the proper invite either yet remembered from when i told her around a week to two weeks ago and texted me this morning to see if she could come. it really proves to show that she was and is my best friend, even if we don't meet as often as we would like. her doing this for me really made me feel a lot of different emotions inside and i just appreciate it so much, so much more than she'll ever understand. also, the pictures that Jerald posted caught attention with my weird face.....and as much as it's embarrassing, it's nice that people notice i exist aha.

possible dan sat behind me, one to the right in lecture today. he was writing furiously on the desk behind me because he's a lefty and that's more comfortable for him. i'm assuming he has some sort of homework due soon but man, what a beautiful sound of hard pen against a papered desk. he was also coughing a pretty rough one, so i hope he's not sick or at least getting better. he had a dumb laugh again, so dumb omg why are you so dumb stop being dumb jkay i like your dumb laugh. and i'm hoping he'll come to class on Wednesday because Qing won't be there and he won't have class right after i think so i may be able to ask him if he wants to walk back together, hopefully? probably not though because nothing ever works to plan with this guy 8D especially since it's Thanksgiving weekend this Thursday so he may not come to Wednesday lecture as most people won't. sigh.