#10thletter

Hello! It's been years since I last wrote for (to?) you in this blog (I was still in senior high school then). But there was not a single moment in all those years that I haven't thought of you. I'm already a college senior now (I'm supposed to graduate this year but life happened so yeah haha), and guess what?! I still adore you, you liddol man >:( This year is my 14th year of loving, supporting, and rooting for you and the sujus, can you believe that? Literally more than half of my life hahahaha. You are, indeed, my youth. Although I'm not as active as I used to be anymore, since I'm too unstable to do so. But rest assured that the love I have for you and the group is still as stable and as unhinged as the first time I met you all hahahaha.

Apparently, you're going back here in the Philippines for Super Show 9. God, can you imagine, it's already a Super Show "9"!!! NEXT TO THAT IS ALREADY A TWO DIGIT NUMBER!! AAAAAAAAAAA HUHUHUHUHU I'm so happy and so proud of you, uncles! Thank you so much for staying strong despite all the shit you went through. Thank you for staying as Super Junior through all these years. Thank you for renewing your contracts! Please, let's make it to Super Show 50, shall we?! Hahahaha.

But yeah here's the thing... I can't attend SS9 here in Manila because no money and ticket pricey :((( The ticket selling was last Sunday, July 17. And idk if the tickets are already sold out, I never looked up for any updates anymore because I was seriously so sad and I was sulking so bad I drank 2 bottles of soju all by myself haha :(( I am /that/ sad! JSDHKASJDH. I really, really want to see you so bad. But unfortunately, I can't... again. The last time I saw you was during SS5 which was 9 years ago and I was still 14 years old then huhuhuhuhu I really just want to see all of you this year but... :(((

I was thinking if I could, like, say hi at the airport once you arrive, at least. But damn, commuting from where I live to the airport is so hard I might cry if I can't find a ride home :(( (also, I honestly don't know how to go there and the easiest way is to book a Grab which is hella expensive btw, and I'm dirt poor!) So really, I don't know what to do :( I really just want to see you aaaaaahhhhh is that too bad :( Am I being too selfish right now? :((

Will you come back? For SS10? Because I promise I will be there!! I /SHOULD/ be there!!! I /MUST/ be there!!! Istg, I'll try really hard to save enough money starting next month just so I could afford a VIP ticket by SS10. :((( I really want to see you AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I don't know how to end this. I'm just basically whining in this letter hahasdhfasjdhfjahsdfhaaffsjdfh huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu please let me see you again in this lifetime AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH

anyway, ;___;, I love you all! I love you, Ddeohae! Please stay healthy for a really, really long time, and let's meet every time we get the chance! Let's meet on SS10, SS11, and so on! Stay healthy, stay crazy, and stay Super Junior! Please live a long life with all the Sujus. Please meet us ELFs even in your 50s or 60s. Haha. I love you all so much and I'm so proud of all of you. I'm so proud to be an ELF too! I love you lots. Always. Forever. In all universes. And in all lifetimes.