#100truths

In 2013 I dressed up as a Native American Indian Girl for Halloween. I was 21 and ignorant and I didn’t understand until many years later that this was a blatant act of cultural appropriation.

I also did not understand that saying the n word if you are not black was bad across the board even when reciting song lyrics. This is going to sound stupid but I did not truly comprehend this this until sometime in my 20s. Me and my ex fiancé would say the word when singing songs and I just feel so ashamed that I ever did that, regardless whether it took place between closed doors or not.

I wish I could change time and change things but of course, I can’t. All I can do is acknowledge these situations, learn from them and keep my vow to never do anything like that again.

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I’ve been inactive for FOUR YEARS!!!!!!

I went down the rabbit hole of my old posts and realized that I never finished my 100 truths, so what better way to come back than to finish them? I’m definitely going to try and fill those in with some of the truths and revelations I’ve experienced during time away from my blog.

I’ve been holding on to these particular truths for years and I just needed to get this all out SOMEWHERE considering everything we’re seeing happen right now in 2020.

100 truths

1. What is your middle name? Michelle 2. How old are you? 37 3. When is your 🎂? October 1981 4. What is your zodiac sign? Libra 5. What is your favorite color? dark rainbow 6. What’s your lucky number? I don’t believe in lucky numbers. 7. Do you have any pets? yes. 8. Where are you from? The U.S.A. 9. How tall are you? 5′ 2 3/4″ 10. What 👞 size are you? depends on the type of shoe. I usually go for an 8 1/2 just in case. 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? too many 12. What was your last dream about? What are dreams? 13. What talents do you have? I’ve yet to figure that out. 14. Are you psychic in any way? I saw how an uncle of mine was going to die once. then it happened. so ... Maybe. 15. Favorite song? https://soundcloud.com/thereallilzant/i-miss-me-prod-by-origami  16. Favorite movie? how do I answer this without people thinking I mean the re-makes? 17. Who would be your ideal partner? Can’t say, I haven’t met them yet. 18. Do you want children? yes 19. Do you want a ⛪ wedding? idk 

20. Are you religious? not anymore

21. Have you ever been to the 🏥? many times 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? no 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? no. 24. Baths or showers? depends on how my back feels or if I need to wash my hair. 25. What color socks are you wearing? None 26. Have you ever been famous? no. 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? not really 28. What type of 🎶 do you like? most types. 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? no 30. How many pillows do you 💤 with? as many as I can fit my head on. 31. What position do you usually 💤 in? on my side 32. How big is your 🏠? I’m not putting that on the internet. 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? Coffee or cereal 34. Have you ever fired a 🔫? only for practice 35. Have you ever tried 🏹? yes, I love it. 36. Favorite clean word? nice. 37. Favorite swear word? **** 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without 💤? a month. would not recommend. 39. Do you have any scars? yes 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? idk they’re secret. 41. Are you a good liar? ??? 42. Are you a good judge of character? sometimes 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? not well. 44. Do you have a strong accent? not to me. 45. What is your favorite accent? ? 46. What is your personality type? Infp 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?a wool jacket designed by J-lo 48. Can you curl your tongue? slightly. 49. Are you an innie or an outie? I’m not an infant so innie. 50. Left-handed or right-handed? slightly ambidextrous 51. Are you 😨 of spiders? only big ones. 52. Favorite food? Momma’s Home Cooking 53. Favorite foreign food? German 54. Are you a clean or messy person? 40\60 55. Most used phrased? be right back\there 56. Most used word? ok 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? it depends on the day 58. Do you have much of an ego? no 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? both 60. Do you talk to yourself? yes 61. Do you sing to yourself? yes 62. Are you a good singer?depends who you ask 63. Biggest Fear? rejection 64. Are you a gossip? sometimes??? 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? 1982 version of Little Orphan Annie 66. Do you like long or short hair? both but I’m trying to grow my own hair out. 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? no. 68. Favorite school subject? reading 69. Extrovert or Introvert? introvert 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? no 71. What makes you nervous? being bombarded with questions I don’t know how to answer 72. Are you 😨 of the dark? no 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? rarely 74. Are you ticklish? sometimes 75. Have you ever started a rumor? about myself. 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? no 77. Have you ever drank underage? once 78. Have you ever done drugs? is caffeine a drug? 79. Who was your first real crush? Larry Mapples 80. How many piercings do you have?just my ears 81. Can you roll your Rs?“ on occasion

1. Is there a boy/girl in your life? Yes

2. Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? Of course

3. What do you think of when you hear the word “meow”? Um, a cat?

4. What’s something you really want right now? A nap

5. Are you afraid of falling in love? You have no idea...

6. Do you like the beach? I mean, it’s okay. I still don’t know why everyone thinks it’s the greatest vacation. I guess I’d rather be somewhere historical.

7. Have you every slept on a couch with someone else. Never

8. What’s the background on your cell? My lockscreen is a dreamcatcher, and my home screen is a quote.

9. Name the last 4 beds you were sat on. Huh? Like the last 4 beds I sat on? I don’t understand.

10. Do you like your phone? I do!

11. Honestly, are things going the way you planned? Do things ever go the way you planned?

12. Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts. Aaron

13. Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? Neither

14. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain. Emotional, for sure.

15. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? Do I have to choose?

16. Are you tired? Always.

17. How long have you known your first contact? Since I was a baby

18. Are they a relative? Nope.

19. Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? Nope. They’re an ex for a reason.

20. When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? Yesterday

21. If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? Sure

22. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? In a heartbeat

23. How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? None

24. Is there a certain quote you live by? Yes

25. What’s on your mind? So much

26. Do you have any tattoos? Yes, 8

27. What’s your favorite color? Red

28. Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? Hopefully tomorrow

29. Who are you texting? No one

30. Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? Yep

31. Have you ever had the  feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? Yeah, it was freaky

32. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? Yeah. I tell him everything.

33. Do you think anyone has feelings for you? Well, I sure hope so

34. Has anyone every told you you have pretty eyes? Yes

35. Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? I’d be highly upset

36. Were you single on Valentine’s day? Yes

37. Are you friends with the last person you kissed? Yes

38. What do your friends call you? Jess

39. Has anyone upset you in the last week? No.

40. Have you ever cried over a text? Yes

41. Where’s your last bruise located? I have no clue

42. What is it from? See above

43. Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? Maybe a month ago

44. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? My grandma

45. Do you have a favorite pair of shoes? Don’t we all?

46. Do you wear hats if you’re having a bad hair day? No, I just go with it

47. Would you ever go bald if it was the style? Nope

48. Do you make supper for your family? Nope. I barely cook for myself

49.Does your bedroom have a door? Yes

50. Top 3 web-paeges? Tumblr, Facebook, Google

51. Do you know anyone who hates shopping? Yep

52. Does anything on your body hurt? My ankle

53. Are goodbyes hard for you? Incredibly

54. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? Milk

55. How is your hair? A hot mess

56. What do you usually do first in the morning? Look at my phone

57. Do you think two people can last forever? Absolutely

58. Think back to January 2007. Were you single? Yep

59. Green or purple grapes? Neither

60. When’s the next time you give someone a big hug? Tomorrow

61. Do you wist you were somewhere else right now? Yes!!

62. When will be the next time you text someone? When I get a text from someone

63. Where will you be 5 hours from now? In my bed asleep

64.What were you doing at 8 this morning? Sleeping

65. This time last year, can you remember who you liked? Yep...

66. Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? yes

67. Did you kiss or hug anyone today> No

68. What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? I have no clue, I was exhausted.

69. Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Oh yes

70.How many windows are open on your computer? 3

71. How many fingers do you have 10...p

72. What is your ringtone? The theme from Game of Thrones

73. How old will you be in 5 months? 26

74. Where is your Mum right now? In heaven

75. Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? We were young and dumb

76. Have you held hands with anyone in the past 3 days? Yes

77. Are you friends with the people you were friends with 2 years ago? I am!

78. Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? How could I forget?

79. Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? yes

80. Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? Yes

81. How many people have you liked in the past 3 months? Just one

82. Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? Nope

83. Will you talk to the person you like tonight? Probably

84.  You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window. You’re with? My best friend probably

85. If your bf/gf was into drugs would you care? Absolutely

86. What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movies? Oh goodness, so much...

87. What was your last received call from? My grandma

88. If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? As awful as this sounds, I would

89. What is something you wish you had more of? Money

90. Have you ever trusted someone too much? You have no idea

91. Do you sleep with your window open? No, but the fan is on

92. Do you get along with girls? I would like to think so

93. Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? No

94. Does sex mean love? Absolutely not

95. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? Yes, I might not stop kissing them...

96. Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? No

97. Did you sleep alone this week? Everyday of my life...

98. Everybody has someone that makes them happy, do you? I do!

99. Do you believe in love at first sight? No