#100k post

I started this blog when I was - what, 14? 13? I don’t even know how old I was. I went through the Mishapocalypse, if that’s a good indicator of how young I was.

I’m eighteen now. 

... Actually eighteen, not whatever I might have said prior on this blog when I was a minor and stupid and making shitty choices. I’m in college.

looking back at this blog is strange, and uncanny, due to the many parts of my life it shows and the many tags it’s used - several tags for people I had crushes on, several tags for interests, the occasional talking about myself. 

but it’s a comfort, in a way.

it’s a constant. 

I don’t think I'll be leaving this site any time soon, save when I’m forced off. tumblr taught me a lot. helped me realize I was transgender nonbinary, helped me realize I was autistic. fucked me up in certain ways, but doesn't every piece of social media do that? 

the username of this blog came to me in a dream. I dreamt I was creating a YouTube account and “penthepoet” was the username. it ended up becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy, as I genuinely began going by Pen in real life and pursuing creative writing. funny how that works, huh? kind of uncanny

anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for those who continue to follow me, whether I have met you in real life or not met you at all or if we have spoken constantly or if we have spoken once or if we have never spoken at all

to quote a certain piece of video game text of which I am exceptionally fond:

The first time Vivec said:

'Ha, it means nothing!'

After looking a second time he said:

'Hmm, there might be something there after all.'

Finally, giving At-Hatoor's garments a sidelong glance, he said:

'Amazing, the ability to infer significance in something devoid of detail!'

'There is a proverb,' At-Hatoor said, and then he left.

- Sermon 2, 36 Lessons of Vivec

... aren’t blogs very similar? you look for meaning in the content given there, you find information, you find meaningless things, you find what could be found?

either way, I wish you best of luck, not as the faceless GHOST icon you’ve become so familiar with, but as the living and breathing human behind this blog.

regards, the person behind this blog,