#10-9-16

I’m going to listen to all of the songs that remind me of people that have hurt me or just don’t have the same meaning anymore, so I can detach them from them and enjoy them once again.

after the break up, i was trying to rekindle what we once had, and after awhile of not talking, i fell in love with being alone. i love being able to live my life with no one expecting me to be who they want. Although I am happy and independent, i have already made mistakes :( its bad how many guys i date. but in my defense, they're not serious, so neither am i. Recently, I go on dates with nate, who is 26, has a BA in sociology and is in the military. He’s from New York and we always have something to talk about. During our date , I forgot where I parked my car, which led to us being lost for 45 minutes looking for it. He was extremely patient and helpful, nothing I've ever experienced. Too bad, I'm not serious about him. He really is a true gentleman. Then theres DJ, who is extremely consistent, is an engineer, 26, played college football at SDSU as a tight end. He graduated with a 3.8 gpa, and he always wants to text/facetime. He resides in LA, and i know it won't work out, but he's good company. I think I'm flattered at the fact he has a thing for asians. Then theres jordan, who on my birthday fell in love with a hug i gave him. I recently went on his boat, and I ended up finding so much about him. He graduated from UCLA and is currently an accountant, plot twist, he's 34.. Ive never gotten with an older man, he was really strange, but satisfyingly, were the same in a lot of ways. I had sex with him, and he fell in love with me, too bad ill never talk to him ever again. Then theres poor evan, the rebound. He recently got a car and lives down the street fro me. every night he wants to hangout and take me out, too bad i don't give him the time of day anymore. he's young, inexperienced and i feel like wed be great friends. Btw, the sex with evan is by far amazing, but that doesn't compensate for his personality. I am super excited for my future (; with this newly found perspective, i feel like i can accomplish anything! 

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