#1.17.2019

in the dream I was watching this movie trailer for a horror movie and the movie appeared to be animated and about a polar bear and her cub and they lived in nature but then the elements begin to attack the mother and like it's small at first little cuts from the water or sand but it becomes more and more devastating until she realizes that her cub is very much in danger and she has to stop it but like I didn't watch the movie I only watched the trailer but oh and I wish I could describe the animation style better but it was like folded fluid paper. everything looked sharp and everything was constantly flowing into everything else. well anyway the trailer intrigued me so I picked up the book and the book was different

in the book she wasnt a polar bear and she didnt have a child she had a lover. in the book she grows up in this like servant class villa where she and her whole community are at the mercy of the wealthy. eventually she runs away with this lover and they enter the wilds of the surrounding area. but yes she still begins to be attacked by sand and water and eventually larger things until she realizes she must do something. so I like skipped ahead to the final chapter of the book which is fucked up and I would never do. but so shes confronting the danger shes figured out a plan shes gone back to the villa to this big water feature in the center of town with very shallow water and a little stone wall that circles the whole thing - the kind of wall that little kids probably love to balance on and walk but it is also big enough for lovers to sit and picnic on. shes put shards of glass all along the bottom of the water and shes covered these in sheets and she has glasses of wine in her hands and sitting on the wall. she begins to walk and to hum a little tune to tempt the danger out. she can feel it and its hesitation it knows she is up to something but her proximity to the water and to the precarity of the wall are very appealing to it. it begins to play with her knocking out tiles in the wall splashing her ankles with water that cuts her but it gets more and more intense. and her fear is palpable every time it lashes out she shrinks back even tho her plan relies on it full on attacking her well finally it cant help itself and it begins to drag her down into the water with green arms that emerge from it and she thinks both yes and no to this.

then I woke up wtf