Venting to my boyfriend because today was truly an experience
I'm just emotionally exhausted and that's why I wanted to just have those days where we escape and no one knows and its just a mini adventure and I just wanted to be with you. But it wasn't happening and it hurt me because even the things that should be able to happen have a way of not working out and that's even more depressing. So instead of thinking of how all the things are going horrible in my life, I decided to treat myself to something sweet and then enjoy the beauty of the clouds blanketing the sun, and how the blue and red were mixing like the sky was a beautiful canvas. I was appreciating the beauty of branches, that even without the beautiful and alive leaves on the tree, how stunning and bold the branches looked in this season and how I admire to be like the branches. I loved the way the dirt was mixed with the rain water in the puddles and the aroma of nature that surrounded the outdoors. I enjoyed the beauty of cars swifting by and just new york city and all that it can be. And I hope to be that way one day but until then, I look at all the beauty surrounding me and it makes me happy. Today turned out to be the exact kind of adventure I was looking for: finding happiness in the cracks of the city and outdoors.
