I can't believe I'm someone's girlfriend. It's a weird and not good feeling really. I think it just takes some getting used to. Being called a girlfriend. I don't feel like one. When people say that word, someone like me is not what comes to mind.
And it feels odd to be in a relationship with a straight man and to not wear makeup or dress feminine or keep up with shaving my legs. I wonder if people will think he's cluelessly in a relationship with a closeted lesbian. Idk. I certainly won't change my appearance for him though. And based on many things he's said, he's fine with that.
When he mentions me to people, they will ask things. What does she do for a living? What does she study? I know he won't be embarrassed but I will feel disappointed in myself. How did you two meet? Oh boy.
He views me like idk. the ultimate catch but it's just the way it goes when you're disabled that people will look at him and look at me in a certain way. And it's not gonna be good. No, it doesn't matter what people think. But in the moment it will be very difficult to handle.
