#090125

I keep saying that it's dangerous for me to stay here, but my parents both said that there's nothing going on, my dad had the audacity to say that the war is over, my mom yelled at me several times in the last few weeks, for saying that we are going to die soon.

I keep feeling and hearing shock waves and I don't want to die yet, and yet my fate is out of my hands, I can only hope that nothing will happen.

My mom told me I need to go get tested, because I said I'm feeling and hearing shock waves.

This isn't fair, I, a disabled audhd queer Jewish person who went through so much in my life, has to spend most of my time in a really dangerous place, knowing that realistically we could possibly be attacked some time soon, which means I'll die.

Just an fyi, I'm 27 y/o, and it isn't fair that people who barely know me will be the ones making my funeral arrangements (if they'll even bother), and deciding what to do with my belongings.

I hope I'll get to live to see tmrw, but if not, my only request would be that if anyone wants to honor my memory, please make beautiful artworks, listen to music, watch horror movies, read classic literature, do crafts and arts, bake cookies and brownies and cinnamon rolls and any kind of sweet thing (or savory).

And most importantly, keep fighting for justice, for disabled people, for queer people, for the Jewish people.

I'll be back later, hopefully.