#08252018

‪☆ 54 THRU‬ 59 OF 100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

lately I’ve been productive as always but posting my daily checklists has gotten harder and harder. not sure why, but tumblr keeps reformatting my posts so I hope you see this the “right way” ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

did anyone have their first day of school this week? how did it go for you?!

I honestly don’t know how I found this band, but I’m glad I did. 

Enjoy!

"Merong mga basurang pwede pang i-process further para ma-ibenta. Basurang may pera. Pero may mga basura din namang wala na talagang pakinabang. Scrap. Kayo yon. Basurang walang pera. Yung basurang may pera, si Guia yon. Kahit basura yon, mapera yon."

3 months. Three long months have past since a new place with a bunch of new people has take dominion in my life. Things went very fast that I have never ever noticed, we are counting the days to end college’s first semester. You know coming to Silliman University is a breath of new fresh air, but as time goes by, I question, how long would this breath of new air will last anew?

I am one heck of a privileged kid of how things work in my life in the past months. 1) I got the most prestigious scholarship program in one of the best international school in PH, and dude this is the realization of all the hardships I went through in high school; glory to God indeed. 2) The scholarship is inclusive of board and lodging fee which enables me to be given free hotel-like accommodation (and guess what, I stay in a large room alone with fully furnished furniture with linens kind of bedroom that has an upper floor in it, also has a huge and so much of a good quality air conditioning AND ITS DAMN FOR FREE, you all gotta feel how the blessed me is screaming in joy!!!) 3) I came to be offered of a lot of opportunities: a chance to be part of the campus publication, debate soc, campus ambassadors, comso, and other major extension programs of the university including Exchange Student Programs but I felt bad for hesitating to join even one since I would to study the environment I’m into and know if my mental and physical health would be capable of handling all the opportunities that come my way and so, I chose to defer from everything but i’m still hopeful to be able to be part of at least two or three of these opportunities a sem or a year after. 4) I personally meet my scholarship sponsor together with his family and I am legit in astonishment as to be able to talk and meet my sponsor and his daughter who graduated Medical School specializing in Ophthalmology with a Summa Cum Laude honors at HARVARD MEDICAL SCHOOL. Dang bruv, my very impossible dream felt like something possible when I get to meet Miss Jocelyn and how she did went to Harvard without anything at hand nor a help from her father. She did went to Harvard that is with 80 thousand US Dollars converted to Philippine Piso is at most 4 million pesos tuition fee per semester and she was able to survive the whole 8 years in Harvard because she was granted partial scholarship and the rest she was able to paid through student assistant services. LIKE HOW DID SHE FREAKIN’ EVEN DO THAT KNOWING MED IS BEYOND EXTREME DIFFICULTY? SUCH A BRILLIANT MIND YOU KNOW AND A BLAZING PERSEVERANCE TOO. I wish I could have the same heart and mind as her. 5) The Campus where I am is a Christian Centered University which means, I am surrounded by Christian Faithful people who shares the same belief at me and for so long that i was bewildered from the sins and darkness coming my every failure as how I constantly declined and refrain from church activities back then was now renewed gradually. I’ve been known to a lot of Kuyas, Ates and Friends who never fail to encourage me to build back what has collapsed a relationship of mine to God. These are the days I feel so alive, free and happy.

Dear God, if this is a dream, please don’t wake me up anymore. God, if these happiness and existence I have presently would lead me to a painful consequence or a heartbreaking exchange of fate, please do prepare my heart. Cause I badly wouldn’t want these things happening in my life to stop.

I feel alive but I’m barely breathing because a lot of things happening lately always leave me breathless. It always leave me in awe, it always leave me mesmerizing through how wonderful life has been and I thank God for constantly reminding me that all pain and sacrifices one offers to the Lord will be repaid of great things coming ahead our way.

Today, Saturday, August 25, 2018. A little oasis amidst rigorous activities we have in school. I was reminded to write something of a gratitude to God and take these every testimonies with me wherever I go.

Father God, I was never deserving of your love and forgiveness. I was heck a filthy and unworthy person to deserve you but you are always embracing me when I’m about to stumble down. I am very sorry if I am always concerned of the “I”, yeah I know I am the most selfish person ever existed. But I love you for you never look at me with all of my shortcomings. Oh God, how you mold me each day to become the best version of myself is so much that I could not express how grateful I am. Indeed all Glory, Honor and Adoration belongs to you alone, Father.

I feel alive but I’m barely breathing,

Cause my heart is overflowing.

And my spirit flies into horizon.

I scream in joy and freedom,