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So this is an idea I’ve had bouncing around in my head for a few months now. For a while I wanted to be small or do something impossible like disappear. When I would walk by the tank I was trying to cycle (basically letting it run empty until it can support fish) I would always think about how nice it would be to escape to somewhere warm and pristine and new, where I had no obligations or responsibilities. Some place where nobody knew me and nobody cared, where I could just fade into the background and not have to do anything other than survive. Last May I made a quick painting to get the idea down, but didn’t pursue it further; I didn’t have the time or the energy.

I haven’t worked on a digital piece for a long, long time it feels like. When I got the Creative Cloud through school, I wanted to do something that I felt like would be easy in order to get the hang of photoshop and get used to using my tablet again. Originally I was going to paint on top of the painting in my sketchbook, but then decided it would be easier to just redo it. There’s definitely a lot of things I could add or change, but I’m going to call it done for now; maybe I’ll go back and rework it later.

Then I couldn’t find them so I tried to write my own. Then I couldn’t write my own so I drew the same tree I’ve drawn a million times. Small things have profound impacts. I planted a tree on my problems thinking that tomorrow it will outgrow them, not cast a shadow over me. I would love to run but my own two feet wouldn’t be able to carry me if I even had the chance.