#060324

dear jj,

it's been a while since I have written an entry and I honestly do miss writing about you. you've been very vocal about missing me these days and I wish I was able to do the same :( but in here, I can bravely say it.

I missed you, too. To be honest, I miss you every moment like how the earth keeps rotating on its axis. Is it corny if I say that I also miss you even when I sleep?

Sorry ang torpe ko and hindi ko mapahalata sayo 😔

Also, do you remember this song na pinarinig ko on my ig notes? Actually, it has nothing to do with you but with my feelings rather. That morning, I woke up missing you and naghahanap ako ng song na pwede ko maiparinig sayo. I suddenly had thoughts about this song so I searched for its English translation and to be specific.

However, I came across a medium (app) blog about it, read it, and then watched the music video. It literally left me on shambles kasi I can relate to it. I've been keeping my feelings for you so long kasi I kept on hesitating.

Do you know just how much of an impact you've done to me the moment I was unaware na you're becoming a part of my life na?

Dati when you're still active na mag sp, makita lang kita sa feed ko ayun masaya na ako. Makareceive lang ako ng notifications from you, abot tenga na ngiti ko. Seeing you making patol sa parinigs ko sa ig, grabe... gagged kumbaga. Recently, we had interactions as well? a LOT pa nga omg. imagine yung kilig ko diba? over the top oa kilig ganern.

Sometimes, I can't help but think to myself of how I was lucky to (at least) meet someone who is sobrang pogi ng vibes pero super goofy at the same time (my typeee hagsgdgs). I'm just glad na there's someone who I can look forward seeing after a long day, kahit pa sa internet lang. I remember nung may duty pa, pauwi palang ako, nagpapahinga na agad ako kasi ayun nga nakikita ko na online ka ><

I want to tell all of those things to you.

Pero what I realized after listening to this song is that: keeping these feelings can also break my heart.