Summary: Sometimes your conviction is too heavy to carry alone.
Warnings: A bit of angst
Pairing: Dean Winchester x Female Reader
Word Count: 640
Graphics: By me
Author's Note: Collab with @princessmisery666
Word of the day (May 15, 2026) - Creed // Master List: Word Of The Day
Everything hurts—arms, legs, back, hell, even your fingernails have a heartbeat beneath them.
It went sideways. Fast. It always does lately.
Still shaking with adrenaline, you sit on the edge of the bed, attempting to wrap gauze around your forearm.
The bathroom light buzzes like a dying fly. The A/C splutters every couple of seconds. Still, all you hear are the screams.
Dean paces, each heavy footfall a tiny jolt to your senses. It's doing nothing to lessen his anger. Instead, it's winding him up to the boiling point.
“You wanna tell me what the hell that was back there?”
Not looking up, you expel a breath. “I had to try.”
“Yeah?” He barks a laugh with no humor in it. “You almost got yourself killed.”
It was supposed to be a simple case. A milk run. Then you heard crying from somewhere below and charged in before there was a plan.
His hands fist with your shrug.
“You went in alone.”
“I knew you'd follow.”
“Seriously?” his voice cracks like a gunshot.
Giving up on the bandage, you finally raise your head to take him in. Tired eyes, flannel shredded to the point he'll have to throw it out. Drying blood, your blood, stains his neck and collar from when he half-dragged, half-carried you out. Beneath the anger, there's fear. Visible only in the slight twitch of his lip.
“Hunting things, saving people, the family business,” he bitterly mutters. “What if I couldn't save you?”
Your jaw tightens. “That’s your family creed.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
Pain flashes white-hot through your ribs as you quickly stand, but you ignore it. “It means I’m not leaving people behind!”
“Nobody said that.”
“You did when you pulled me away.”
“Because the damn building was collapsing.”
“There were still people down there!”
“And there would’ve been one more if I hadn’t dragged you out!”
He looks sick at the thought. Silence breathes, furious and contemplative.
Swallowing your own anger, you take a moment to compose your thoughts. “My m …before every hunt, my mom would say, 'Save everyone you can, avenge the ones you can’t'.” Briefly closing your eyes, you heavily sigh. “She believed if somebody died while you stood by doing nothing, their blood stained your hands forever.”
“And what?” Dean shot back. “Yours gets clean if you die trying?”
Ready to fire back, your mind fails to provide the words, and he rages on.
“You run into every hunt like you’ve got something to prove.”
He's right. You've been ignoring the fact that somewhere along the line, you stopped caring if you made it out. “I’m trying to save people," you weakly reply.
He steps closer, voice deceptively calm, but still tight. “You’re trying to punish yourself.”
“That’s not true.”
“I know what it looks like when somebody’s got one foot off the cliff already.”
Feeling too seen under his scrutiny, you drop your gaze.
“You think I don’t get it? You think I don't have the same thoughts?” Voice cracking slightly, features hard, watery eyes seemingly stare into your soul, as he breathes, "If I just bleed enough, hurt enough, maybe it balances the scales.”
“It never balances. It’s never enough," you softly reply.
“No, it’s not, but we fight like hell to save the ones we can."
“It’s not fair.”
“I know.” Rough fingers tentatively caress your uninjured arm. “My entire life has been one long horror movie, watching people die. I can’t... I can’t lose you, too.”
It feels like a gut punch. The words hit too deep. Your chest tightens, squeezing your heart.
The anger is gone. Pain and uncertainty remain, filling the space between you. Dean's hand falls as he turns, but you quickly grab it, moving forward to hold it against your heart.
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VERSE OF THE DAY:
ROMANS 5:8
But God showed his great love for us by sending us Christ to die for us while we were still sinners.
GOD'S GREATEST GIFT OF LOVE
The Book of Romans, Paul’s letter to the churches in Rome, is a foundational letter that covers many important topics in the Christian faith.
In it, Paul describes our lives prior to God as being distant from God, and even enemies of God—we chose to live against God’s good plan for our life. He also talks about the goodness and grace of Jesus that provided us with a path back to God through salvation.
Central to Paul’s argument and experience as a Christian is found in Romans 5:8. He says that while we were still distant from God and running from Him, God sent Jesus to die for us. It is through this that God displays His ultimate love for us as children.
Paul isn’t just speaking in theory—he is speaking from experience! God met Paul in the midst of his work to persecute Christians. And while Paul was an enemy of God, God still made a way for Paul to come back to the heart of Jesus.
The same is true of us.
Regardless of what our life looks on the outside, we all start at the same place as Paul—we were once distant from God. And it is only through Jesus that we have been brought close to God, and are now part of God’s family. You have a way back to God, thanks to Jesus' sacrifice!
BE ENCOURAGED
None of us deserve God's love. But because of His radical generosity, we can receive God's love!
SHARE YOUR FAITH
Today, remind someone that they can't out-sin God's love and grace. He died in our place so that we can have eternal life.
God, Thank You for sending Your Son to take on the weight of our mistakes. You demonstrated the ultimate act of love by caring for us while we were still sinners by taking our place on the cross. Thank you for your undeserved mercy and grace! in Jesus' name, Amen.
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