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我也听了后点了点头，说这样子是最好的，找个信任得过的年轻女子代孕会是两全其美。妈妈这时候就说他听了之后不是很愿意，他想不到还有其他女人或是让别人生孩子。我也就安慰妈妈，或许他只是太爱妈妈了，不希望妈妈伤心难过所以才会拒绝。要找到认识的年轻女子大概也不是很容易而且还要他喜欢才行，不然生出来的孩子，他可能会不喜欢。妈妈这时候就看着我，她没说什么，他也刚好回来了。接着也是边吃边聊聊天，他时不时会问我平时做些什么，关心我然后也会露出温柔的表情。

妈妈大概都看在了眼里，之后要回家的时候，他去取车，我陪着妈妈。妈妈握着我的手然后认真的问我，要是她希望我来代孕，我会不会接受？我表现得很吃惊然后有些生气再来就是和妈妈说，我觉得叔叔不会同意，我也不会这样子。我说我知道叔叔很爱妈妈，我也不想要让我们的关系变得复杂所以希望妈妈不要这样，我会当做没有听到。他取了车，今晚也是一样，送妈妈回家然后才送我。他也很贴心的帮我准备了围巾，担心车上冷但是没有肢体上触碰我。反而他会亲自帮妈妈披围巾。

I AM THE MOON

There’s 1 minute left before four in the morning, yet I’m still awake. I only sleep when the sun rises.

I am the moon. You usually see me at night but you can sometimes catch me at day time--daydreaming. You will see me shine brightly as I overlook and share a little of my light to the creatures who walk the dark alleys and to those who sleep in the streets.

The creatures usually ignore my existence and only remember me when they need someone to shed some light to their problems. No matter how bad they take me for granted, I’m still always there for them.

No matter how dark it is, I will share them my light. As I only shine the brightest and can be noticed when there is darkness. Afterall, I am the moon.

他看着我的眼睛，说要是可以让我给他生孩子就好了。我就提起了妈妈告诉我的话，他也就懂得其中的意思了，就是让我代孕但是是怀上我和他的孩子。可是为了不要妈妈起疑心，他得表现出他不要但是最后是为了成全妈妈的愿望然后让我怀上他的孩子。我表示同意，说我也很想要给他生孩子，他这么优秀，孩子一定很棒。为了确保孩子是他的，我最近会去医院一趟做检查然后准备备孕。

It's been a few months that I've left the studio now. The urge that I still wanted to become a gameplay animator still lingered in me I guess. I asked my lead about what he thought about me going down this path before I decided. He assured me that there wouldn't be any hard feelings if I left and I should follow the embers of the passion in me. I ended up taking a small breather from working at all, but it felt that I was just wasting time not improving the whole time.

Ended up taking an online course to freshen up my skills and enforcing me to work although still feeling overwhelmed. Been seeing some progress from the few weeks in the course. And watching others in my class struggle with the fundamentals makes me feel like I've made the wrong decision on picking my instructor. They all seem very new to animation or the software in general, which means they seek help from the instructor and I. Fortunately, R can also help me get a second opinion on the workflow again, but I feel I am leaning on him too much and can't do anything on my own. Perhaps I'm still not cut out for this type of work.

Vista previa de la presentación de Taemin en el ASEAN Hallyu Expo 2020.

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